AH-1005 A Donkey
Named Peter
by R. E. Geis
Contents
One April's Boy
Two "And Doggie Makes Three"
Three A Donkey Named Peter
Four The Show Goes On
Five A Pony For Two
Introduction
Human sexual activity with animals is not as rare as has been
thought; a great
deal of curious sexual experimentation goes on between girls and
their dogs and
cats, between women and their pets. Only a small percent continue
it.
Roger Blake, Ph.D., in his book Beauty/Beast, Vol 1, writes: "...
the
statistical possibilities are that one female in twenty and one male
among every
twelve to fourteen are currently engaging in bestial relations, have
had sexual
contact with animals, or will have sex relations with one or more
animals."
Extrapolation of the Kinsey reports' figures indicates that right
now there are
approximately five million females in this country who have, will
have, or are
having sex contacts with animals.
Sex acts between women and larger animals pigs, ponies, donkeys,
horses is
thought to be limited to commercial sex circuses and exhibitions by
prostitutes,
but a secret, not-too-rare area of such activity exists on the
farms. There,
widows and young women often experiment with larger animals and
sometimes
develop intense emotional attachments to their animals.
Recently a Swedish girl who posed for a number of pornographic
picture magazines
with her stallion, pig, donkey, and dogs and cat was interviewed and
said she
had been having sexual contacts with animals since she was seven
years old. She
claimed she'd rather have sex with an animal than with a strange
man.
Why a woman seeks or accepts sex with an animal is a question with
many answers.
One reason is that the raw, uninhibited power of an animal is
attractive to a
certain kind of woman--the masochist--who seeks punishment through
the pain and
humiliation of sex acts with animals.
Roger Blake comments on this factor thus: "I feel that vast numbers
of urban
women who are bestialists may also be masochists. The contact with
an animal 'is
a degradation, 'proving' that they are real 'bitches' to
themselves."
Certainly this has to be part of the motive money is the excuse--of
the
prostitute who perform sexually with animals in "circuses" and
exhibitions.
There is an interview in this book with such a woman who "does it"
with dogs.
True names and places have all been changed or omitted.
Chapter 1
April's Boy
One of the healthy, admirable things about today's youth is its
honesty,
especially in relation to sex.
And among the most open and candid of young people today are those
generally
described as "hippies."
It is my good fortune to know a number of them and to be trusted by
them.
I do not deliberately seek out sex histories from them, but in long
hours of
talking about every subject imaginable, sex always comes up and
often we will
bare our "secrets."
So it was when I talked with April about love in general and how it
can exist in
the strangest places and between the unlikeliest people.
The point arose that we are all animals and that a deeply emotional
love could
(and often does) exist between an animal and a human, and that it
would not be
unusual or unbelievable for there to be a sexual element involved.
Dr. John F. Trimble agrees with this. In Female Bestiality he
writes: "In my
opinion, most authorities seem to overlook the fact that, in the
case of
domestic pets, the very reason for having the pet is to have
something alive
that one can dominate and love in a purely selfish (although
sometimes
apparently unselfish) manner. The person bestows affection on the
animal, and
where affection is possible, so is physical response and stimulus."
Roger Blake, in his Beauty/Beast, Vol 1, mentions: "... I have run
across some
cases of female bestiality where a very loving and affectionate
relationship has
been inculcated for both the mistress and her dog."
April nodded and frankly told me of a sexual thing she had going for
a while
with her dog, a full-grown greyhound, when she was still living with
her dad on
their farm where they raised and raced a stable of dogs at the
Oregon, Mexican,
and Montana tracks.
She was fifteen at the time. She is now eighteen, living with two
young men as
their wife and is apparently quite happy and content.
She agreed to let me tape her story and to put it into a book if the
opportunity
arose. Of course April is not her real name.
"When Mom died, Dad sort of threw himself into making the farm go
and I guess I
did, too. We lived and breathed greyhounds and races and training. I
went to
sleep with dogs barking a few feet from my window and woke up at
dawn with them
barking at the sunrise and wanting breakfast.
"I was fifteen and I was itchy for sex but I didn't know it. I had
hot flashes
and I was always squirming around in bed and masturbating like mad
before going
to sleep, but I was a dope, I just didn't think it was unusual. I
guess it
wasn't unusual, actually. I was mature for my age. I had my growth,
as they say,
by the time I was thirteen and that's about the time I started
masturbating like
a mink."
"I didn't know it was 'bad.' It felt pretty damn good to me.
Physically, I
needed a boy to fuck the shit out of me, but I didn't know any,
really, I
didn't. We were on the go almost all the time, driving up to Oregon
for the
track season or over to Montana or down to the tracks across the
border ... and
I met lots of men--shit, they were drooling all over me--but I was
scared of
them and I was a silly virgin ... you know how it goes."
"And I had to take care of Dad--he limped around with that short leg
from the
accident--and I had to take care of the dogs ..."
"My special dog was April's Boy. That was his official name for
racing. I just
called him Bo. He was mine, heart and soul. He loved me and I loved
him. He had
the biggest, widest, brownest eyes you ever looked into. He was so
sleek and
beautiful. He was handsome!"
"I loved to hug him--I went out at night and went into his private
run and just
hugged him! He was so warm and vibrant! So full of energy and life!"
"He didn't win often. He could have--he had all kinds of speed, but
he couldn't
learn to cut right on the turns. He'd be ahead going into a turn and
lose it all
on the outside. Then he'd get up on the finish, but always be third
or fourth.
It was heartbreaking. He tried so hard. I cried like a baby when he
came so
close."
"I guess the sex part started one night after I had been
masturbating like crazy
for about an hour. I would get absolutely wild from fingering myself
off half a
dozen times. I just got hotter and hotter, squirming around ... my
nipples stuck
out a mile, I was so worked up. Then and my clitoris. The more I
rubbed it the
bigger and harder it got. Finally it was almost too sensitive to
touch. I just
lay there in bed shivering and itching and wanting a man's cock in
me so bad ...
but afraid to try it for fear of getting pregnant and having a messy
affair and
being some guy's property."
"I was thinking in straight, square terms then. And none of the men
I knew
appealed to me as husband material."
"So I rubbed myself off all the time and thought about my prince
charming with a
hard six or seven inches who was a millionaire who would find me and
marry me."
"The sex thing with Bo started one night on the farm after we got
back from a
three-week run in Mexico. I started masturbating to get rid of some
sex tension
that had built up and I got myself all wet and juicy and I came off
about five
times, but it wasn't enough. I was thinking more and more about
sticking a
banana or something up in me and fucking myself, just to feel
something up where
the itch really was."
"As you can see, I'm a kind of chubby girl with nice fat legs and a
nice fat
ass. Also I've got a really nice pair on me. Talking into a tape
recorder like
this is fun ... no one's going to know my real name or where we
live, so I can
really level and be flat-out honest."
"So--you're going to let this bit get into the book, too? Why not?
If I don't
talk too much? I guess you'll cut out what you don't want, huh?"
"To get back to what I was yakking about--good old sex--can we play
it back?"
"Okay, yeah. A lot of teenage girls masturbate a lot, a helluva lot
more than
most people think. It's so easy after you get the hang of it, and
these days
with sex education and anatomy and books all around, a girl learns
all about her
body, especially the clitoris and what it's for."
"So, I was rolling my clitoris around under my finger, in the soup
that
accumulates in me down there when I'm hot and I started sliding my
finger into
my vagina, too, as far as I could."
"I was technically a virgin because I hadn't been fucked yet, but my
hymen was
gone from all the fingering I'd done in there."
"I was working myself up good again in bed that night, one finger
going in and
out and the middle finger of my other hand rubbing away on my
clitoris. I was
laying there naked, knees wide, panting away, staring up at the dark
ceiling."
"It still wasn't good enough, though. So I tried two fingers inside.
It was a
different sensation and I went off again. But that itch continued in
a really
heavy way. My whole vagina felt ... well, I was aware of it. I could
feel the
whole length of it in my belly, reaching up inside me, like a ...
like the
inside surface of it was sensitive. I know girls aren't supposed to
be able to
feel anything in the vagina, but I swear I did. Still do, actually.
There's got
to be some nerves in the lining."
"And I had this special itch way up at the top in my belly."
"Then I heard Bo out in his yard, whining and barking, like he was
calling me.
He kept it up seemed like for hours. And I couldn't get to sleep. I
tossed and
turned and my mind kept ticking away and my belly glowed inside and
Bo kept
whimpering ..."
"Finally, I put on a robe and went out to see Bo. I could hear him
whining. I
was naked under the robe, and barefoot, but it was a hot night and
dry."
"I went into his run and petted him and hugged him. He was excited.
He was sort
of shivering against me. His coat was smooth and silky and he was
very warm. I
could feel his heart going faster than usual."
"I couldn't resist--I opened my robe and pulled him against my body.
My breasts
felt funny touching his fur. My nipples were like hot, aching
fingers."
"It was a special kind of turn-on. He was so human and so loving and
so alive! I
crooned to him and petted him and rubbed his coat. And I guess I
cried a little,
too. We were both losers. He couldn't win and I was stuck with him
and the other
dogs and with Dad. I wasn't getting to school enough. I didn't see
any way out.
I thought my life would always be that way."
"Bo whined to me like he understood. He licked my face and neck.
God, I loved
him. I hugged him so hard."
"I guess he could smell me--my wetness and how sexed up I was. Maybe
girls smell
like female dogs. He started making little sounds and making fucking
moves.
Aimless, because it was just instinct and there wasn't a bitch
around for him."
"It was a moonlit night and I could see. Bo had an erection. I'd
seen dogs with
hards before, plenty of times, but there I was hugging this
man-sized dog, this
warm, 'human' pet of mine, and rubbing my breasts against him, and I
was horny,
and then ... there's his prick sliding out all dark and wet and
long."
"It shocked me. You know, it was like, 'Can't I trust even you?' But
then I knew
better. He was in heat like me. We were both in the same boat."
"Then Bo did something--wow, it blew my mind--he sort of hunched
over and
started licking my breasts. Maybe it was the salt in the sweat he
was after ...
but he started dragging that long, hot, rough tongue of his over my
nipples and
it was like jagged lightning!"
"I just gritted my teeth and enjoyed it! It was that kind of
sensation--intense
and spine-curling. He was drooling a little. His saliva dropped onto
my belly. I
rubbed it into my skin. I was really hot. I was shivering like him
every time
his tongue scraped over a nipple. The skin around my nipples was
sensitive,
too."
"I was sitting on the ground with my robe wide open and my legs wide
open, and
he was crouched between my legs, slobbering and whining and licking
my breasts
... just as if he knew, like he knew it was getting to me."
"I was ... it was a kind of moon-madness, I think. It was past
midnight, there
was nobody around who could see. Dad's room was on the far side of
the house. I
knew he slept like a log a drugged log. He always took pills to
sleep since the
accident."
"So I just let Bo lick me and I kept rubbing his saliva into my
belly and then I
was rubbing it lower and lower, till I had it lathered into my
mound-hair. He
kept on licking me! He dug it! My beautiful Bo really dug turning me
on."
"I was breathing hard, just like he was, and before I knew it I had
a hand
between my legs and was fingering myself again. I was sopping wet
down there. My
clitoris was like a smooth, oiled ball-bearing. God, it felt great!
I rolled it
and rolled it ..."
"I went off right away. I guess I groaned. Bo whined and licked my
face. Then he
snuffled down at my ... I guess I better call it what I usually call
it--he
started snuffling at my cunt. Snorting, kind of."
"I took his head in my hands and talked to him. It was insane. 'Want
to eat your
mommy's cunt, Bo?' I kissed him on the nose. I petted him. He was
trembling."
"I guided his head to my breasts and he started licking my nipples
again. He was
drooling more than ever."
"My breasts had a hot feeling inside, like warm Jell-O was inside,
and the
nipples were sticking out, still hard, still sending shivers through
me each
time his tongue sandpapered over one of them."
"Then I--I wanted to do something for him. He was suffering so. He
was so in
love with me and so--human. He couldn't help being a dog."
"So I reached up under him and I touched his penis--his cock. It was
like a red-
hot poker, sticking out like that from his belly. When I touched it
he did a
little dance, but he kept on licking my breasts."
"I put my fingers around it and it was like holding a slippery,
jumping, hot
candle. It was really all the way out, too. It was surprising. Bo
was a big
greyhound, though. I think his cock was at least seven inches long.
Not very
thick, though, but long. Touching it made me feel funny in the gut."
"He started making short, sharp, fucking movements, sort of
automatically, with
my hand holding his cock. It went in and out of my hand like a
greased piston.
Fast. I can still feel it in my hand. It was so strange and weird
and perverted
... but I kept on holding his cock and he kept fucking my hand so
damned fast!"
"He was whining and making small chest sounds, sort of growls, but
not quite,
and he started fucking my hand even faster! It was sort of
terrifying how fast
he could make fucking movements."
"And in the middle of his cock--about halfway down from the end--his
cock
started to swell up. It got a kind of bulge in it, like a knot. It
was like an
egg had grown inside his cock there. It was hard and hot. It was all
blood-
gorged tissue. Dogs get it there when they're really worked up.
Sometimes the
blood can't get out again for a long time and the swelling stays
there for
hours, all congested and painful."
"I knew Bo was close to shooting when I felt that knot get big in my
hand. But I
didn't realize how close!"
"Before I knew it was happening--wow he was shooting all over my
belly and
breasts. Squish squish squish squash!"
"It shook me. With my hand around his jerking cock I felt that big
throb, that
swelling, each time he squirted--but so fast!
"Suddenly I was covered with his stuff and he was off and away, sort
of prancing
around the run, frisky as hell, happy as hell, with his tongue
lolling out and
grinning."
"A dog sure can grin. He was just like a man. I smelled and I was
icky and
sticky, but I had to laugh, he was so funny."
"I patted him on the head and went into the house. I had to hold my
robe closed,
but out away from my front so I wouldn't get it smeared with his
stuff."
"I took a shower and went to bed again. I went right to sleep, too,
which
surprised me in the morning when I woke up and realized it."
"I wasn't ashamed of what I'd done with Bo. It was just something
very private--
just between him and me. I knew he wouldn't tell ..."
"Oh, yeah, it happened again."
"I didn't think about it, I didn't plan for it to happen again. But
the same
sort of pressures started working on me and I was unconsciously
intrigued, I
guess, and wanted to do it again."
"During the time between when I went to feed him and exercise him
and train him,
Bo was very good. I mean, he did everything right. He even ran some
races I
didn't think he was capable of, against three of our best dogs."
"Just for me, I think."
"But it was embarrassing sometimes he'd see me in the morning and
bark and leap
up on me and his cock would slide out--all shocking pink and wet and
long."
"Right away I had to teach him 'NO!' After a couple times of pushing
him away
and a hard voice he got the idea. He learned to stay down and not
presume."
"But he kept looking at me kind of puzzled and yearning and hoping,
all the
time. He didn't forget."
"Well, finally, one night I was that way again. I went into Dad's
room and saw
he was out sleeping like a dead man; just his chest moving. Zonked
on barbs."
"I went into my room and turned the light on and took off my robe
and pajamas
and looked at myself in the mirror. Like I said, I've got a fine
pair of breasts
and my nipples stick out good, but the rest is nice, rounded fat.
Plump ...
pleasingly plump. I haven't changed any in the three years since ...
not
physically anyway."
"I could hear Bo calling me ... sort of a low howl, and the
whining."
"I turned off the light and went to bed naked and tried to sleep,
but my hands
kept going to my breasts and twisting my nipples. Not a hard twist,
just enough
to make them tingle and ache and feel funny."
"And then I was on my back, legs up, hands down in my crotch,
working away with
busy--busy fingers.
"God, how I finger-fucked myself! Two fingers in and out as fast as
I could move
them. I guess I was unconsciously trying to imitate Bo's speed."
"But I missed his warmth and big, strong body and the feel of his
fur, and the
way he panted with his tongue lolling out and the way he licked me.
And the way
he responded to me, the way his big brown eyes followed me
everywhere."
"But even using my finger--two of them jabbing deep into my cunt--I
still had a
tremendous orgasm. I closed my eyes and had a vision--Bo fucking me
with that
long, hot, wet pink candle of a cock of his--and I came like
lightning hit my
guts."
"It left me gasping and shaking. And I heard him out there in the
dark, calling
to me. And I wanted to go to him."
"I fought it a little. I loved him and I knew he needed me. But I
was afraid of
myself. I was afraid I'd offer myself to him. It was weird. But a
sex-ridden,
all-mixed-up fifteen-year-old girl can get so emotionally screwed up
sometimes,
it isn't funny. My whole life was greyhounds, racing, and my dad
(and he was
impossible to talk to ... he was like a hermit almost; he never
talked to me). I
was in isolation, didn't have any girl friends or boyfriends, and
kept a lot to
myself ... All I had was Bo."
"So I lay in bed with my fists clenched trying not to hear him. And
my belly was
itching again and I was rubbing my thighs tight together and my
breasts were
getting a hot feeling."
"Finally I just started crying and got up and put on an old robe (an
old robe
deliberately) and went out to him."
"The other dogs smelled me, too, and they snuffled around in their
runs and
houses and barked some, too. But Bo had a special voice. I could
tell his call
every time."
"I let myself into his run and locked the gate. He seemed to sense
this was
different than during the day when Dad or someone else was around
and he had to
behave."
"He pranced around me, whining eagerly, smelling me, his nose sort
of flexing
and wet in the dark, his paws making patterings on the hard-packed
earth."
"I said, 'Hi, Bo. Your mommy's here.' I knelt down on the ground and
took his
long, muscular neck in my arms. I kissed his sleek head and
whispered in his
ear."
"He started trembling in my arms and rolled his eyes and his rump
started to
wriggle and bob up and down."
"'Ohhh, does April's Boy have a yen?' He was whining loudly. I
stroked his back
and side and slid my hand down under to his upcurving belly and back
to his
loins."
"It was out, all right. The minute he felt the touch of my fingers
he started
jabbing the air."
"I took my hand away. 'Don't you want to lick my breasts, Bo?' I
opened my robe
and exposed my breasts. I took his head in my hands and guided him."
"He snuffled at my breasts and then his tongue fell out of his mouth
and slurped
up over my left breast."
"It sent shivers through me. I petted him. I cupped my left breast
and offered
it to him again. He licked it again. My nipple felt like a Fourth of
July
sparkler! 'Oh, good boy, good boy ...'"
"He got the idea I liked it. He kept on licking with that long,
warm, groovy
tongue."
"I leaned back to make it easier for him to lick, and then I was
flat on my back
on the ground and he was standing over me, his long neck reaching
down to me,
his tongue slurping over my naked breasts, leaving a trail of saliva
all over
and I just let him lick me where he wanted."
"I was in a kind of dizzy spell. I was sort of paralyzed. I couldn't
seem to
move."
"He licked closer and closer to my crotch. Then he snorted and
snuffled and his
tongue sort of slurped right into my crotch, right into the juices."
"Talk about electrifying sensations! Talk about dreadful delight! My
head was
swimming. My heart was going thunk-thunk-thunk! My guts were icky
with
scaredness, and his saliva was cooling, drying on my breasts and
belly and his
tongue was lapping in my crotch, slapping up against my cunt!"
"My legs opened up all by themselves. He was dragging that long,
wet, silky-
rough tongue up into my crotch again and again, right over the lips
of my cunt,
tasting my juices and liking it, I guess. He was snuffling loud and
putting that
cold wet nose down in there, too."
"I think my clitoris was sticking out like a sore thumb because his
tongue was
grazing over the tip of it. Jesus Christ, what a screamy-creamy
feeling! My ass
lifted off the ground each time he slithered that tongue up my slit.
I was
frazzling."
"I mean I was coming! He kept up that licking there for a minute or
two and I
was in orgasm every second."
"Then he broke and ran around me in small circles, barking and
whining. His cock
was sticking out like a poker under him."
"I just laid there and was dizzy. It was like a dream."
"I called him to me. He came and lowered his head and licked my
face. I laughed
and petted him and pulled him around so I could get my hands on his
cock."
"He pranced and stepped on my chest and then got one hind foot next
to my head
and one hind foot next to my right armpit."
"He was right over me! I got my right hand around that long, moist,
red cylinder
of a cock and put my other hand on his back to steady him and keep
him in
position, and he started fucking my fist."
"I was looking right up at it. He was hunched, his ass down, jabbing
away--right
in front of my face."
"It was like looking down the barrel of a cannon. I knew when he
shot off, it
would go all over my face and get in my hair and everything."
"But I didn't care. He was so exciting to watch! His ass was working
so fast.
That thin, long cock was moving in my fist like a piston. He was so
alive, so
eager, so basic and unrestrained. God, I loved him! He never held
back--not in a
race, not in his love for me, and not in enjoying sex."
"I wanted a man like Bo. I guess Bo spoiled me for men for a long
time."
"That swelling started to build up in his cock, like a big egg
forming halfway
down, getting thicker and thicker and rounder and bulgier, till it
was like a
kind of hilt that stopped my fist from sliding down his cock any
farther. But
there was still about four inches in front of that swelling knot. A
greyhound is
a big dog, and he has a long cock, altogether, when it's all slid
out."
"Anyway ... I felt the first pulse in his cock and the first shot
hit me in the
throat. It was like a soft bullet--I could really feel it hit. And
then it was
shooting all over! Two or three times a second!"
"Now this'll turn you off--but I got some right in the mouth ...
yeah, right
square into my mouth so it was way back in my throat almost, right
on my tongue
so I got a good taste of it."
"Well, you know, I'm--I've sucked off a lot of guys ... I swallow
their semen--
my husband's semen all the time now. I dig it. They each taste a
little
different."
"But Bo tasted sort of bitter, like creamy pickle. And it made me
gag and spit
and almost vomit. I rolled over and drooled saliva and made ugly
noises ... I
wanted to be sick."
"But the taste stayed in my mouth and I finally got up on my feet
and let myself
out of his run and stumbled back into the house and got a bottle of
wine out of
the refrigerator and took two or three big swigs of it."
"That killed the taste and I went in and took a shower and washed my
hair."
"The funny thing was by the time I was in bed again I was giggling
over it and I
went to sleep like a rock."
"Things were okay for another couple weeks. But I started having
dreams. Very
vivid, real dreams--about Bo. I kept seeing him jumping in the
window and
jumping up on the bed--in my dreams. And I was shameless. I pulled
him down
under the covers next to me and pressed up against him. He was very
warm and I
hugged him and I was naked against him."
"I played with his cock and slid down under the covers and put my
cheek next to
that long tube of a cock. He smelled very doggy and dirty under
there, but I
didn't care."
"In those dreams I did weird, awful things. One time I was under the
covers and
I had his cock in my fist next to my face, and he was jabbing away,
and I put my
mouth over the end of it. Try sticking your finger into your
mouth--no, try
sticking your finger in rancid butter and then sticking it in your
mouth and
jabbing it in and out real fast, as fast as you can! That was what
it was like
in my dream--and then suddenly the covers were jerked away and there
was my dead
mother glaring down at me. She had eyes of fire that burned right
through me."
"She didn't say a thing. I just shriveled up. And Bo was suddenly
gone and I was
alone and awake and crying."
"But those dreams didn't stop me. I loved Bo. I kept thinking about
his tongue
licking between my legs ... and the tremendous sensations it gave
me."
"So ... I guess it had to happen eventually ... I got up one night
and checked
to see that Dad was zonked out on pills and I went out and brought
Bo into my
room."
"He was nervous at first so I just petted him and got him used to
jumping up on
the bed. I didn't try any sex with him. I just soothed him and lay
against his
warmth and was quiet. And I talked to him, too, low and
confidential. I told him
all my secrets."
"After a couple hours I took him back to his run."
"The next night I got him again, around midnight, and took him into
my room ...
and up on my bed. I couldn't get him to stay under the covers. It
was too warm
for him. So I used him to keep my naked body warm. It was a
beautiful thing we
had. He was very well behaved. He licked my face a little, and I
petted him, but
he didn't get excited sexually unless I was. I guess it was my smell
that turned
him on if I was worked up."
"So you guessed it. About the fifth time I had him in my room, when
he was used
to it and at home with me on the bed, I started petting him, running
my hand
down to his belly, to that furry bulge that holds a dog's cock."
"Bo started licking my face. I squeezed that furry holster of his
and rubbed it
gently ... and little by little his cock started to swell up and
slide out."
"I was naked. And I guess seeing and feeling his cock slide out like
that sort
of turned me on, because I got the itch good and strong in my belly,
and I
wanted him to lick me again, on my big breasts and between my legs.
I guess I
started to ooze a little down in my slit."
"Bo smelled me. He was laying on his side but he wanted to stand up.
I held him
down and kept on tenderly fingering his cock. I got a shivery
feeling up and
down my back. I slid my hand up and down that long thing and I
wanted to try it
... I really wanted to see what it would feel like inside me."
"You have to understand--it's important--Bo wasn't just a big dog to
me. He was
somebody who loved me and I needed his love. He adored me. The way
he looked up
at me with his big brown liquid eyes sometimes ... it just turned my
heart to
water. My heart just did flip-flops. He was a person in a dog's
body. He could
almost talk to me. I got so I knew exactly what he was thinking and
feeling."
"So when I took him into bed with me--it wasn't terrible or
perverted. It was
just pure love. But I was a pretty mixed-up kid. I really didn't
know where my
head was at."
"I crooned to Bo, and whispered to him and shushed him when he
started to whine
too loud or tried to bark. And he knew he was supposed to keep quiet
inside the
house, there in my room. But sometimes he got really excited and
forgot."
"I finally let him stand up on the bed and start to lick me. I
whispered to him
and petted him and guided his head to my breasts. He remembered and
his tongue
slurped out and started wetting my breasts and nipples, and his
muzzle and lips,
too, like a slobbery kiss, warm and wet."
"My breasts got even heavier and fuller. My nipples felt like
steaming rocks."
"The itch deep in my belly was like poison ivy inside, but with a
funny heat."
"I slipped a couple fingers of my left hand down inside me and
slushed around
and in and out, but it wasn't much good. It just got me hotter."
"I smeared the juice all over the outside of my cunt. Bo was getting
more and
more eager."
"I took my hand from his neck and he had his muzzle down between my
legs right
away."
"It was incredible the way he worked his long tongue there. He
slobbered a lot
and I knew it was wetting the blankets, but I didn't give a damn."
"Bo seemed to just love the taste of me. He seemed to be trying to
get his
tongue way into my slit."
"I was hardly aware of what I was doing. I just suddenly had my
knees high and
wide open and was reaching down there to spread myself even more for
him. And I
was shaking like a leaf. God--it felt like ice and syrup and
sand-paper with
velvet--that tongue! That long, slithery tongue!"
"Bo had me gasping and panting like a bitch in heat. I was kind of
delirious, I
think. He kept up that tremendous licking for the longest time!"
"The more I got the more I wanted. I loved it, I loved him ..."
"Something clicked in my head and I turned over and got up on my
hands and
knees. I spread my knees wide so it would be easy for him."
"My guts were icky with fear and sort of sexy dread. But I was hot
as hell and I
wanted Bo's long, thin hot cock inside me."
"He didn't know what to do at first. He jumped around on the bed and
licked my
ass and down into my crotch, but he didn't think of mounting me, not
right
away."
"I talked to him low and soothing, and finally I just waggled my ass
and waited.
My heart was thudding in my chest like it had boots on. But that
itch in my
belly and my love for Bo kept me trying."
"He knew I wanted something, he just couldn't figure out what. I
just didn't
look enough like a female greyhound to make his instincts work."
"But he was all hot and bothered, too, and after a couple minutes he
sort of
accidentally mounted me for a second, then slid aside and off.
But--wow--I had a
second of feeling his cock jab at my crotch."
"I encouraged him and eventually he hopped up on me again. His front
paws were
on my back and shoulders and he was panting and jabbing away at my
crotch
again."
"He didn't get in--he was between my thighs, hitting my ass ... but
he stayed in
position for about ten seconds, and I made encouraging sounds and
said, 'Nice
Bo, good boy!' and like that. I tried to reach under and grab his
cock and put
it in, but he didn't know enough to be still for a second--he just
kept humping
away blindly."
"Then he slid off and pranced around me on the bed, then thumped
down onto the
floor, and jumped back on the bed--with that long pink rod sticking
out of him
underneath."
"He made a lot of noise--the bed creaked and rattled when he jumped
around on
it, and he shook the house when he jumped down to the floor. I mean,
he weighed
over a hundred twenty pounds."
"If I hadn't known for sure my dad was doped to sleep I wouldn't
have dared
bring Bo inside."
"But then he got an inkling of what I wanted, because I was still
crouched down
on my knees like that and I was calling to him."
"He jumped up on me again and started jabbing. And it happened.
Jesus, did it!
Suddenly he found the hole and I almost screamed! It was just
wham--six or seven
inches of dog cock was plunged into me!"
"Then it was gone and he was outside, jabbing away, trying to find
the glory
hole again. Because Bo knew--he'd had just that little split second
taste of me
and he wanted more."
"He kept scrabbling and with his paws on my shoulders and back ...
he kept
sliding off one side or the other and having to jump up again."
"And he kept trying to hold on--and he was excited, too, and he dug
his claws
into my skin. It hurt too much--and I was afraid he'd break the skin
and rip
me."
"So I turned around and calmed him down and petted him and then went
to my
closet and put on an old leather jacket I had. It felt cold and
clammy on my
bare skin--it was unlined--but it would protect my back. I left the
front open
and got back on the bed where Bo was sitting, panting, grinning, his
tongue
lolling, waiting."
"I got into position again on hands and knees, my bare ass hanging
out, and he
right away jumped up on me from behind."
"It worked--the jacket worked fine--he could get a hold in it with
his paws and
didn't slip off me."
"And he seemed to know I had put on the jacket for his benefit and
that I wanted
more fucking. He kept on trying to find my hole again."
"And he finally hit gold! He popped into me again, and he gave a
little yipping
bark of delight. And this time he didn't pull back too far and lose
it."
"All I knew was sparkles and stars. He had that hot rod all the way
in and was
humping like a piston. I was electrified. He was like a spear up in
my belly and
it was reaching some place very special. The itch spot was getting
rubbed and
thumped real good."
"I was kneeling there on my bed, my head hanging down, my big
breasts hanging
down, wobbling with the movement of his fast bumps up against my
ass, gasping
and panting while wonderful Bo was panting over me, doing his little
dance on
the bed, and fucking me like mad all the while."
"It was all so frantic and quick! Bo didn't know anything but
machine-gun speed.
It was just incredible. The first few seconds scared the shit out of
me. I was
afraid of getting hurt inside or something, because he was really in
me! I'd
never felt anything in that far! And being fucked for the first time
that fast--
all out--was almost terrifying.
"And getting fucked by a dog--an animal--even a loved animal--was
kind of a
shocker, too. I really loved him and I knew dogs better than I knew
people. I
knew Bo better than I knew my own dad. Dad hardly ever spoke to me.
But still--I
knew it was a perverty thing. Not exactly normal."
"So it took me a while to get used to it all. I mean, it took me
about three or
four fucks that way before I got so I could relax and enjoy it a
lot."
"Bo didn't shoot off in me that first time. I got scared--I thought
I heard Dad
getting up and I stopped it. I made Bo calm down and held him in my
arms to keep
him from trying to mount me and making those loud half-barks."
"I listened hard but the house was quiet. I finally put on a robe
and crept down
the hall and looked in on Dad. He was in that drugged sleep, quiet,
long, deep
breathing. I can tell."
"So I went back to my room, and played with Bo--let him fuck off in
my fist, and
got him to lick my cunt some more. But my insides felt a little bit
sore, and I
decided to wait a few days."
"But I could hardly wait, after that night. I was all creamy inside,
and hot.
But I forced myself to wait till the small irritation inside went
away."
"So two nights later I made sure Dad was zonked out and then brought
Bo inside
to my room. He was eager--he knew what we were going to do. I had to
shush him
because he was so excited he started to bark impatiently a couple
times.
"I got naked and put on the leather jacket first, even before I let
him lick me.
God, how he loved to lick my cunt! And how I loved to have him do
it! I opened
up for him and pulled my slit open with both hands--everything was
exposed--all
juicy and ready--and he slurped out that long, wet, slab of rough
pink velvet
and lapped away ..."
"You've got to believe I came in a minute. My clitoris was getting
the full
treatment. I was whining almost like he was."
"The more he licked at me the more hot I got. I had an orgasm and
that started
the itch in my belly, somewhere under my belly button. Then I had
another orgasm
and my whole pelvis was glowing. Boy, did I want to get fucked."
"I guess when you're a kid a half-crazy, neurotic girl like I was
... still am,
too, I guess--you sort of lose touch with the world--with what's
really right
and proper. Things seem right to you that practically everybody else
would throw
up over."
"I didn't really think what I did with Bo was so terrible. It didn't
hurt me,
physically, or emotionally. It's supposed to, I guess, but I don't
think it
did."
"Come right down to it, you know, I think I just needed love then
... and Bo
loved me, and I needed to give love, and I focused on Bo ... and I
think the
physical sex part wasn't as important as maybe it seems."
"Oh, shit, I don't care! I dug it! I might as well level. I enjoyed
it. I mean,
once I got used to it, and Bo got the hang of fucking me, it was
terrific. It
was so wild it sends shivers through me now."
"No man in the world can fuck a girl like a big dog, if he's trained
right, and
there's love in it. That sounds crazy, I guess. But I think it's
true, and I'm
not just copping out. It's not just an excuse."
"Anyway ... that night I turned over again and he got up onto me
from behind,
and jabbed away for a few seconds, looking for the right place ...
and I finally
reached under and back and took his cock in my fingers--jesus, it
was so wet and
hot and stiff! -and I aimed it and he plugged into me."
"He was so excited he lost it ... and I reached under and did it
again. I got
about ten seconds of fast, hard thumping, with that rod going up
into me like a
bullet each time."
"It took my breath away, and I was a little scared again. An
animal--a dog--is
so unrestrained! He's very basic. Ruthless."
"Anyway, I had to reach under and grab his cock and point it right,
about a
dozen times. And the last few times he got hip ... he waited for me
to put it in
the right place. He was learning!"
"But I didn't let him shoot in me that night. I was getting sore way
up inside
again. It was a mixed feeling tenderness and pleasure. I had the
feeling if I
let him go ahead I might come, but the pain would get too keen, too.
But we
fucked a lot longer, that second time, and I knew it was just a
matter of
getting used to having him fuck me that deep and that fast."
"So I waited five days before doing it again. And then six days
after that, and
the night finally came when I knew I was ready to go all the way and
let him
fuck me all he wanted."
"I knew I could take him. I wasn't afraid. I made damn sure Dad was
doped up
with his two or three heavy barbs."
"I went into his room and shook him to see if I could wake him. He
was like a
warm corpse. I even half-yelled in his ear. He only frowned and
turned over. I
was safe."
"I went out and got Bo. He scampered around me on the way to the
house,
snuffling at my robe, trying to wedge his head in between my legs. I
had to push
him away and whisper, 'Not yet, darling.'"
"I went into the kitchen first, and he followed. I got some leftover
gravy from
the refrigerator and started it heating in a sauce pan."
"I had a weird, perverty idea. I knelt on the floor and whispered
sweet, soft
words to Bo and petted him. He tried to push his head between my
thighs and I
let him. I leaned against the stove and opened my legs and let him
lick my slit.
He trembled and whined as he did. It got me hot in a minute."
"When the gravy was warm, but not hot, I took it into my bedroom and
Bo followed
eagerly. He could smell it."
"I took off my robe and put on the leather jacket and let it hang
fully open. My
big breasts kept it open, too."
"I smeared some warm gravy on my breasts and called to Bo. I was
sitting on the
edge of the bed. I sank down to my knees. He whined happily and
started licking
the smeared gravy."
"It was wild. I leaned back against the side of the bed and stuck my
cheat out
and let him lick me clean. Then I smeared my breasts again ... and
again ... He
licked endlessly, willingly. My nipples were on fire and my whole
breasts felt
like warm balloons."
"He didn't need any urging to put his narrow muzzle down into my
crotch. I stood
up and sat on the edge of the bed again and opened my legs wide for
him."
"Bo snorted and snuffled and pushed his snout right in, deep between
my thighs
and started working his tongue on my slit."
"I wanted more contact. I pulled my legs up till my knees were
pressing against
my chest. My cunt was wide open to his tongue."
"He slithered his big long tongue all over me there, licking and
dragging it
over my protruding clitoris till I was moaning--it was sparkles of
pure
pleasure."
"I couldn't stand it any more, after about four or five minutes of
it. I got up
in the middle of the bed and knelt in position for fucking."
"I didn't have to call Bo. He jumped up right away and his long
poker was
sticking out. He climbed up with his front paws on my back--in the
jacket--and
his tail was swishing back and forth, wagging, and he knew to wait
till I
reached under him and guided his cock."
"I was breathing fast and deep. I was still a little queasy in my
guts, every
time he got into position and poked that rod so far up into me."
"But I wanted it! And I got it!"
"Jesus, the shock of that thing going in the first time, no matter
how juicy and
worked up I was, was something! It always hurt some, and my insides
sort of
spasmed."
"But Bo didn't care about me. He was a fucking machine once he got
inside. He
loved the feel of my cunt inside."
"Christ, I can't get over how fast he could fuck. It took my breath
away. But
that long cock of his sliding in and out so quick was a turn-on for
me, too.
That sensation of being penetrated--that rod slamming way up into my
belly like
that, pounding away like mad against that spot--the uterus or
cervix, I guess
... it just about turned my brain to jelly."
"Bo wasn't perfect. He kept losing me and I had to reach under all
the time and
put him back in. But even with all that--shit, I had me an orgasm
that just
about turned me inside out."
"That furry sheath at the base of his naked cock kept rubbing and
bumping
against my open slit as he fucked me. It tickled the hell out of my
clitoris.
That drove me crazy--and at the same time all that pink rod was
driving into me
like he was churning butter ... yeah, he was churning my butter all
right!"
"It only took me a minute to make it. From all that licking he had
done
beforehand--I was primed."
"I was panting and waggling my ass and damn near screaming, it was
so good. And
then I felt that knot start to swell up in his cock ... and it was
in me!"
"I guess you've heard the story about how a dog can get stuck in
another dog if
the knot gets big inside the bitch. And the idea is it can happen to
a woman if
a big dog is fucking her and he gets scared or something and the
knot swells up
and he can't pull out."
"That's bullshit--at least as far as a woman is concerned. First of
all, the
swelling isn't that big. It hurts a woman who isn't used to taking a
big man,
but that knot can't get stuck in her. It'll only stretch her, and if
she's
hysterical, too, it might cause her to freeze and clamp down, which
could hurt
even more--but the dog could still pull out."
"So when I felt the knot forming in Bo's cock it didn't scare me. As
a matter of
fact--it started to feel extra good--like a kind of big French
tickler. It
popped in and out of me and rubbed my clitoris going in and out. It
was a weird
sensation, that knot going in and out of me, and the end of his cock
reaching
all the way up in me--and then some!"
"It's an experience, getting royally fucked like that by a big,
loving dog like
Bo. But I guess just the thought of it would blow most girls'
minds."
"Anyway, Bo was really working hard--fucking me like a maniac, and
getting ready
to shoot off in me. He was growling and whimpering all at once, and
prancing
around behind my ass while he plowed into me."
"I was getting up into orgasm country again, very fast. It surprised
me and made
me feel really perverty to make it twice, because it was proof I
really dug
getting screwed by a dog. The first orgasm you could say was sheer
excitement
and the novelty and mostly psychological. But the second time was
the convincer.
And I was getting that hot fluttery feeling in my belly and
everything was
tightening up."
"I went off just after Bo started shooting. I could feel that stuff
squirting
out in my cunt, up inside, it shot out of him so fast and hard."
"I didn't care--I was making it, too, and that stuff made the
fucking sort of
sweeter and more intense."
"Then Bo was finished and off me. He just wasn't interested anymore.
He jumped
off the bed, grinning, and snuffling around, looking for a place to
sleep, I
guess."
"I just sort of slowly folded down flat on the bed, with that stuff
of his
dribbling out of me, running down my thighs."
"I was numb in the brain and sparkling in my belly, and sore in
there and sore
around the entrance, too, from the way his knot had been rammed in
and out so
fast and hard."
"But I didn't regret it, then. I don't now, either. I really don't."
"After a few minutes I went into the bathroom and washed up. Then I
put on my
robe and took Bo out to his run and locked him in."
"I had to change the top blanket. It was too wet and icky in spots.
I put the
pan of gravy back in the refrigerator."
"Sure, a week later I got hot pants again and went out and brought
Bo inside.
And we did it again and I came three times."
"The next time was three days later and I couldn't get enough. I
started to
think about training some of the other dogs, too. I was kind of
crazy. I was
sex-mad."
"My affair with Bo lasted almost six months after that first good
fuck with him.
We never got caught."
"But then--poor Bo got killed. It was a fluke thing ... he got out
of his run
one time when I was in town--he dug his way out--and I guess he went
off to look
for me."
"Some stupid kid out hunting in the hills shot him. Said he thought
Bo was a
deer. Bullshit! He just wanted to kill something--just wanted to aim
and shoot
something alive."
"I was heartbroken. It was a crisis for me. Dad put me into a
boarding school to
'straighten me out.' And I gradually got back to normal. Anyway, I
ran away and
came out here and started mixing with people."
"I met Tom and started shacking with him, and Phil joined us, and
I've got all
kinds of friends now and a place in the world. I'm about normal, I
guess."
"I don't think I'll ever make it with a dog again, though. I don't
think I'll
ever get that close to a dog again, or need a dog's love and
affection that
much."
"Bo was my whole life for nearly a year. I still puddle up and cry
sometimes
when I'm blue and I think about him."
Chapter 2
"... And Doggie Makes Three."
The phenomenon of couples, almost always men and their wives, almost
always in
their late twenties on up to the fifties, training dogs (usually big
dogs) for
sexual purposes, is both fascinating and disturbing.
Such activity is minimal, and secret, and it exists almost
exclusively in the
"swinger" area of middle-income, bored, mate-swapping, jaded,
thrill-seeking
people in large cities and their suburbs.
In Beauty/Beast, Vol. 1, Roger Blake supports this view: "From my
own
research among swingers and wife-swappers who have sex-parties
today, some of
which are almost on a par with the fabled Roman Orgy, bestial acts
are the
latest in fad. During the ten or more years that swinging and
mate-swapping have
become so widespread and popular (almost paralleling the 'sexual
revolution'), I
have noticed that they always seem to be looking for something
different. It
seems, at times, that many of them are obsessed by what they feel is
'the
attractiveness of evil.'"
A historical note might be added here, for perspective. Allen
Edwards and R.E.L.
Masters, in their The Cradle of Erotica mention: "Historically,
bestiality has
commonly been put to more therapeutic uses in the West, especially
as a remedy
for venereal diseases (to which end it is also employed by Muslims).
Europeans
have further attempted by bestiality to cure cases of satyriasis and
nymphomania. And aging males, brooding regretfully over their
declining virile
powers, have also sought to find in intercourse with various beasts
an
improvement of their potency--a search sometimes crowned with
temporary success,
since any novel erotic act may in some cases, and for a time, revive
flagging
appetites and capacities."
Within the "swingers" there is an inner, exclusive group of
"super-swingers".
Those who, for complex emotional reasons, will try anything and are
attracted to
the idea of sexual relations with an animal, the dog being the most
handy and
easily trainable.
As the following interview shows, the "doggie training" couples are
not easily
discouraged and count it as a mark of pride and accomplishment to
have a
disciplined, well-trained dog.
It takes months to properly instruct a dog in his sexual duties, and
persistence
and dedication is required of its owners.
In The Animal Lovers it is stated: "The Rosenfeld survey reveals
that the
majority of female bestialists prefer dogs, both for sexual
intercourse and for
cunnilingus. A California woman told me: 'Properly trained, a dog
can french a
woman much better than a man. For one thing, his tongue is larger,
and a dog
seems to enjoy the actual taste of the secretions ... often he (her
poodle)--
will french me for as long as an hour!'"
The interview below came about as the result of misdirection; I was
interviewing
a couple about their wife-swapping activities and attitudes, when
the husband
let slip something about their dog--a beautiful, full-grown German
shepherd--who
was lying at his wife's feet, watching me alertly.
The wife colored slightly and said, "If you're going to tell him
about that,
I'll leave."
She was calm but uncomfortable. I was not a close friend, actually
almost a
stranger, and not someone with whom she herself could immediately
talk so
honestly and openly.
I knew the husband fairly well, though. He grinned and winked. His
wife left and
he went into the other room to talk to her for a minute, then
returned.
It was okay to tell me about it but not in their apartment. She
didn't want to
be "in hiding" in the bedroom while he gave all kinds of intimate
details to me.
But it was alright to go over to my place for the questions and
answers. As he
described her attitude later, in the car, she was willing for him to
tell me
everything about her and Khan and himself, but she couldn't bear to
be present.
I wasn't "one of us" and while I could be trusted (she knew me by
reputation
mostly), she still didn't have the sangfroid required to sit with me
and talk
about it herself, into a tape recorder. An understandable attitude.
The interview:
"Khan is one of the family now. In a way we center our whole lives
around him.
We never had any children."
"We got him as a puppy. We bought all the books on how to take care
of him and
how to train him. When you live in a city you have to have a
well-trained dog."
"We taught him to sit, heel, come, and stay. Then to beg, roll over
a few
standard tricks. Once we got him to know he was important and we
loved him and
he would be rewarded if he did well--it was easier and easier. Khan
is a highly
intelligent animal."
"You know we've been in the swinger scene for four years. It's
changed a lot ...
people accept it more now, and join in easier."
"We enjoy it, but after you've been with about a hundred different
couples and
single girls, the variety of human types--physical and
personality-wise, well,
it repeats--you begin to see patterns and duplications. And after a
while ...
most of the people you meet and go to bed with are all the same. You
get bored."
"Our starting in with Khan, sexually, began as a joke. Marsha was
lying in bed,
naked, beside me, and we were just playing around a little. It was
after
midnight and the TV was on at the foot of the bed. A talk show was
on. Some
doctor was saying sex is good."
"Marsha is impulsive; she said, 'Pricks are good,' and she rolled
over to me and
started sucking me off. I was soft at the start, but she is an
expert at it.
Inside twenty seconds or so, I had a helluva hard on. She was using
her 'swoop'
style--long, slow sucking, where she takes practically all of a
penis into her
mouth and throat, and pulls back slow and easy, then swoops down and
takes it
all again."
"I worked a finger into her and started finger-fucking her slow and
easy. She
stopped sucking to say, 'bowling ball,' which is a code, sort of, to
mean the
way you grip a howling ball, which means sexually ... Well, she
turned around so
her back was to me and she was leaning over my belly, with her rump
in easy
reach of my right hand."
"She likes 'bowling ball'; it's a variation that gets her really
worked up. When
Marsha is really lathered she is like a sex maniac. I knew she was
interested in
a good, long sex-time.
"I started fondling her cheeks and running a finger down into the
crack ... down
into her crotch to her vulva.
"She wriggled her hips and sucked me better and better. I got my
first two
fingers into her, then ran the ball of my thumb over her anus ...
and then
pushed my thumb into her--then I had two fingers in her vagina and
my thumb in
her rectum--like gripping a bowling ball."
"She gave a little bubbly moan and wriggled her rump against my
hand. I kept my
fingers and thumb moving in her. She was swooping faster and faster,
taking all
of my penis with an open mouth, then clamping tight on it for a
long, slow
withdrawal."
"I was getting to the point of no return. She knew it, too. She kept
right on.
She started moaning all the time, low and very expressive ... which
meant she
was getting worked up to a high pitch. She is very sexually involved
with the
oral thing--she can get very aroused from sucking. She says the feel
of a hard
prick in her mouth and the business of mouthing it and tonguing it
and feeling
it get harder and harder and longer and longer and finally gush off
... it makes
her so horny she has to have a lot done to her for a long time to
satisfy her
built-up yen."
"I knew when she reached that enthusiastic sucking and low moaning
stage I had a
long night ahead of me going down on her and using some of the
devices on her."
"The 'devices'? Mostly the vibrator and the dildoe with the ticklers
and the
pommel. It's a strap-on model, with a hollow inside I can wear it
when I'm too
limp, or so another girl can use it for variety. Believe it or not,
most of the
women are intrigued by a strap-on dildoe. They always get around to
trying it on
and using it. They all secretly want to be men, I think. To see what
it's like
to fuck a woman. They pose in front of a mirror wearing the thing
and giggle and
laugh ... some girls get hysterical from laughing. Some get very
disturbed, too,
because wearing it has a strong attraction--they respond to the
secret bull-dyke
element in themselves and it scares them. Give a woman a dildoe like
that and
watch her reaction; it's very instructive in human nature."
"I let myself go and gushed into Marsha's mouth, just as she wanted
me to. It
was fantastic. When she knows you're about to go off she clamps
tight around
your penis on both the up stroke and down stroke, and works her
tongue like a
snake."
"I was empty for the night--we'd done it the night before, and I'd
gone off
three times then--so there wasn't much left."
"She sucked me dry and rolled onto her back. She said, 'Get me a
soda, honey,
please.' She always likes to drink a soft drink after sucking
somebody off."
"I went into the kitchen, naked, to get a can of cola, which was all
we had in
the fridge at the time, and stopped to pet Khan. His sleeping box is
in a corner
of the dining room."
"He followed me into the bedroom. I didn't hear him on the carpet.
He was beside
the bed before I realized anything."
"The point is--there was Marsha with one leg hanging down off the
bed, using the
vibrator cup on her clitoris, and she was lying there with her eyes
closed, that
soft smile on her lips I know so well, and her hips jumping and
squirming ..."
"I said, 'Look who followed me in here.' She looked and said, 'I
need a good
active male about now.' She put the vibrator aside and reached for
the cola. She
laughed and patted Khan's head. 'You want to fuck your mommy,
darling?'"
"He loves Marsha. He started licking her leg. He smelled her
vulva--I could see
his nose twitching and flaring."
"She let her thighs fall open further. She petted him. She sipped
from the cola
and smiled at me and winked. We watched to see what he would do.
"Khan sniffled at her crotch, looked at her, looked at me, for a
word of
disapproval or approval, for some guidance."
"Marsha smiled and said, 'Good boy, Khan. Do your thing, boy.' And
to me she
said, 'Do you think ...?'"
"Khan sniffed at her again, then, experimentally, licked her there,
just once.
He looked to her again, then at me."
"Marsha had a funny look. She said, 'Do we dare?'"
"I was curious ... and I wondered how far she would go. I said, 'Go
ahead. See
what he'll do.'"
"She giggled, 'What if he bites?'"
"He's too well-trained. He wouldn't hurt you."
"She took a deep breath and turned off the vibrator. Its humming
bothered Khan.
The sound probably set up ultrasonics or something in his ears. She
sat up and
shifted a little more on the bed, so that he could reach her crotch
more easily.
She patted his head and scratched his ears. 'Do it again, Khan. Lick
your
mommy.' She gently pulled him closer."
"He rolled his eyes and looked at me. I sat on the floor beside him
and patted
his side. I ruffled his coat. 'Good boy. Do it.'"
"It was as if he understood me. We were both smiling and happy with
him. He laid
his chin on Marsha's thigh and looked up at her, so sorrowfully, but
with that
keen intelligence that you see in German shepherds."
"She kept petting him and then shifted her crotch closer and closer
to his
muzzle. 'Don't you want another taste, Khan?' She was saying it
lightly; it was
a joke, nothing serious."
"He licked her there again and was petted and crooned at. His tongue
curled out
and he licked her persistently for about ten seconds."
"I could see his tongue slide over her vulva and the tip even
slithered inside,
into the really wet surfaces of the labia, and probably over her
clitoris."
"I saw her face when that happened, too. Her eyes opened wide and
she gasped
once. Her stomach tensed. She met my eyes for a second. She looked
puzzled and
ashamed and delighted all at once. Her left cheek twitched. Khan was
still
licking at her ... in her ... and her inner thighs started to jump,
too. I
remember the exact intonation of her voice. She said wonderingly,
'Oh, God,
Harry!'"
"The way she said it made me almost feel the sensations she must
have been
feeling. I started to get another hard on. I petted Khan as he kept
up his
tonguing her crotch. 'Good boy,' I said."
"Then I noticed that he was getting an erection, too. His penis was
beginning to
slide out of its sheath."
"I told Marsha. She was delighted. 'Really?' She craned her head to
see. 'This
is fantastic. I've got a new lover.' And then she flushed. Id never
seen her
turn red like that. It spread all over her face and neck and chest,
down into
her breasts, in a speckled, mottled way.
"I asked, 'Do you want to try to get him to fuck you?'
"Oh ... what an idea ..." She was flustered. "I don't know ... do
you think
that's a good idea?"
"'We could try. It's something new. Lots of swingers are training
their dogs for
this."
"I guess so. Oh, Harry--his tongue is incredible!"
"She actually writhed. When she did that I knew she was in orgasm.
She reached
for my hand and gripped it. She was panting, eyes squeezed shut."
"Khan just kept on licking at her crotch. There must be something
about her
secretions or her smell or both that makes him eager to lick her
like that.
Maybe he's only responding to the smell of a female's lust, as if
she were a
bitch in heat."
"Marsha had three orgasms in a row. I could see her belly sucking in
and out and
her thighs trembling. Then she gasped, 'I can't stand any more. Too
strong!'"
"I patted Khan and pulled him away. He whined and looked at me
reproachfully."
"Marsha slipped off the bed to her knees beside him and hugged him.
'Oh, Khan;
you are a good dog. You're going to lick your mommy a lot from now
on. But your
tongue is too much to take for very long.'"
"She told me later it was like padded silk which had a one-day
growth of
whiskers."
"I took him back to his bed and gave him a few pieces of dog candy
as reward,
then told him to 'stay.'"
"When I returned to the bedroom, Marsha was drinking her cola again.
She laughed
and flushed again and said, 'I feel depraved as hell.' She sort of
evaded my
eyes, too."
"But two nights later we called Khan into our bedroom again, and
while he licked
her off, she sucked me off. That was fantastic. I was lying beside
her head and
was fucking her mouth as she faced my hips, while Khan lapped away
at her open
thighs."
"When she was coming she put a hand on my rump and urged me to fuck
her mouth
deeper--all the way. She can take me that way because I'm not all
that big, and
she has the trick of not gagging somehow. I've seen her go down on
guys with up
to seven inches--big, fat seven inches--and she could do like that
folk song
says, 'Just open her throat and swallow a goat'"
"So I rammed all the way in till she was mouthing my balls every
plunge. A
couple seconds of feeling her throat and the root of her tongue
tightening
around my glans was enough. I went off like a geyser."
"Getting Khan to fuck her was a long process. He was willing, but we
had to find
the right position and everything. It took months. It was a game for
all of us."
"Slowly, though, he got the idea. We had him doing it facing her,
standing
between her thighs. She was lying half on, half off the edge of the
bed. Khan
learned to keep his forepaws on each side of her chest and to stay
within her
arms."
"Khan doesn't have a big penis. He's eighty-four pounds and
twenty-three inches
high at the shoulder--not as huge an animal as a Great Dane, but I
think smarter
and more human, although you'll never get a Great Dane lover to
admit that."
"A Great Dane is a helluva beast for a woman to take. We made
contact with some
other 'dog fanciers' in the swinging set, and one couple had a Dane
they'd
trained in the fucking arts. That woman wouldn't make it any more
with her
husband ... or any other man. It was her Dane or nothing. That
animal was
superbly trained. I'll admit that--he could get up on her and steam
that pipe of
his into her till you'd think she would drop dead, or he'd get
tired. But that
monster could keep it up for ten minutes at a time. They put
something on his
penis to make it insensitive so he'd last longer ... some kind of
fluid."
"That dog drilled that woman like he was driving rivets ... and she
was
quivering and moaning and jerking under him almost as soon as he
started. When
he finally got off her she was as limp as a rag. You should have
seen the dreamy
look in her eyes, though."
"Most dogs in these situations--you know, when they're trained for
sex, too--
most dogs are one--family dogs, in that they won't fuck or lick
another woman or
man."
"Khan is that way. He won't do anything to another woman. It must be
that he's
loyal to Marsha or is focused on her or only likes the taste of her
particular
secretions. He's a one-woman dog, for sure."
"During the months that we were training him to fuck properly,
Marsha was at
first awfully embarrassed. She still is around people we aren't
swinging with.
She can't really open up and be natural about herself and Khan
except with me
and other 'doggie training' devotees we've found."
"She couldn't look at me at first when Khan mounted her. She blushed
all over,
but that passed. Soon she was making jokes, and hugging him and
encouraging him
unselfconsciously."
"I suppose she relaxed because I was as interested in it as she. My
psychology--
I'm not sure why I like to see Khan fuck Marsha. I love her and I
think it's
partly wanting her to have all the enjoyment and pleasure she can.
Partly it's
doing the unconventional. Partly it's ... I suppose there's an
element of
masochism and self-hate and hate for Marsha--to see her being fucked
and licked
by a dog. Not much, though. I've always been an individualist and
never did
accept the puritan ethic and the 'Public Morality.'"
"It's hard to tell what really motivates Marsha. She likes thrills.
She likes to
live full blast, but with discretion. She'll try almost anything,
but not
exhibitionistically. Showing Off, with an audience, is not her can
of beans."
"On the other hand, we've been to get-togethers where the hostess
and host put
on shows for the guests. These were swinger parties, you understand,
but even
so--"
"Before I get back to our experiences with Khan, let me tell you
about a couple
out in the Valley. They have a huge mastiff named Caesar--funny how
the big dogs
automatically seem to be named with 'big' names I like Caesar, King,
Khan, Rex,
Prince, Duke, and so on. Well, they really are noble-appearing
animals."
"This mastiff is the biggest damn dog in the world. Like a small
pony, you'd
swear. He measured thirty-eight inches at the shoulder and they told
us he
weighed as much as his owner--which is one hundred eighty-four
pounds. THAT is
one helluva dog. Especially when you consider that the man's wife is
only five-
two."
"This actually happened. You can ask Marsha if it didn't. In fact,
we're
supposed to go to their place again this weekend. We probably will,
too, just to
see that brute go to work on them both."
"Yes, indeed. Caesar fucks them both. The guy likes to take it in
the rear like
he was a bitch--down on all fours. Right in the middle of their
sunken living
room. And they don't mind if you bring along your camera and take
some
pictures."
"Hey, I've got some I can show you, if you'd like, of them. I don't
know if
Marsha will agree to let me show you the ones we have of her and
Khan."
"They have a big round hassock they use. The woman--her name is
Doreen--lays on
it on her back. It's just the, right height for her and Caesar."
"The first time Marsha and I went to their place there were two
other couples
besides ourselves. No one brought their dog--dogs have trouble
accepting other
dogs in scenes like that: they get into jealousy and territoriality
and all
kinds of confusion. Three or four big male dogs in an apartment like
ours, for
instance--it'd never work. One dog to a party is the rule."
"Caesar is a beautifully behaved animal. And beautiful to see, too:
he's a
golden brown, with a massive chest and heavy legs. He radiates power
with every
line, every move."
"After drinks and some talk, the conversation at swinger parties
always gets
around to sex and usually the unusual variety."
"Marsha and I were inhibited in talking about ourselves and Khan,
but the other
couples were very open ... the talk was down-to-earth: tips on how
to train a
dog to lick a woman properly. To mount her, to keep him calm, to
slow him down
and make him last."
"Then there were some straight swinger pairings. That's almost
automatic. I was
approached by the hostess and asked if I would like to play with her
in the
bedroom.
"She--Doreen--is small, as I've said, and slim--most men would call
her
downright skinny. Her hipbones are prominent, and she has thin legs,
so there is
a wide gap between her thighs at the crotch. Her breasts aren't
much--almost
nonexistent; little fried-egg things with small pinched nipples. One
thing
unusual about her: she has a big, wide, thick muff of blonde pubic
hair."
"We went into her bedroom and started kissing. She said she didn't
like
intercourse with men who wouldn't 'plug' her in the rear."
"I told her I'd done it a few times and it was okay."
"That was a go signal. She became very erotic and said she needed a
good 'fuck
in the ass' to warm her up for Caesar."
"She squirmed all over me and started mouthing my penis once I had
my pants off.
She had stripped right away--she had had on a pair of gold hotpants
and a blue
bulky knit pullover sweater. All she had to do was pull off the
sweater and push
down the hotpants and she was naked."
"She smelled nice--great perfume--and so I started licking her in
imitation of a
dog--right between her wide-spaced thighs--right on the hairy lips
of her vulva.
It wasn't much fun--I prefer a woman who shaves her pubes or who has
very little
natural hair, like Marsha."
"But Doreen could use her mouth with great skill. She didn't like to
take much
more than the head of my penis, but she could do it all exquisitely
with her
tongue and lips and inner cheeks and palate."
"When I was erect she presented her buttocks to me. 'Put some spit
on it and
plough right in,' she said."
"I put fingerloads of saliva on the end of my penis, then between
her cheeks, on
her anus. I pushed a wet finger into her there and she was tight but
easily
expandable."
"She said, 'Do anything you want to me there.'"
"I slid my finger in and out of her anus. It was smooth and snug and
slippery. I
pressed in another fingertip, then the rest of the finger. She said
she loved
it. I finger-fucked her for a minute."
"I asked if she took Caesar there, too. She said she took him
wherever he
entered--he didn't know the difference and he did it in whatever
hole he got
into first. She said she loved it whichever it was."
"I got into her anus with my penis after that, but didn't come in
her. I quit
after about ten minutes and she offered to suck me off. I said no,
I'd wait till
later."
"She was pretty well aroused. I went into the bathroom to wash off
my penis, and
she went out into the living room, stark naked."
"When I entered the living room she was sitting on the round hassock
in the
center of the sunken room with a young woman, a wife of one of the
men, kneeling
with her head between Doreen's skinny, wide-open thighs, eating her
... wetly
and noisily."
"The girl was rather lovely and had long black hair. It surprised me
that she
would do that, with an audience. But she acted drunk. Her husband
wasn't too
happy about it, but he pretended not to care."
"Then Doreen's husband brought Caesar in from their backyard."
"Everybody took a quick breath. That brute is big, and he walks like
a lion--
kind of loose, don't-give-a-damn swagger. He came in on the end of a
thick
leather leash and his large blunt head, with that mastiff jowl and
muzzle and
heavy dewlaps, was high and alert."
"Caesar saw Doreen on the hassock and trembled like a switch had
been thrown. He
pulled on the leash to get to her."
"But Bill--Doreen's husband--said, 'Heel,' and Caesar obeyed
instantly. But his
nostrils were flaring. He was inhaling all the smells in the room.
He stood,
eager, at Bill's side, about ten feet from where Doreen lay getting
eaten. He
moved his paws anxiously."
"Doreen saw him, of course, and said, "Hello, Caesar. I'm getting
ready for
you.'"
"It's always surprised me a little how directly and intimately women
talk to
their dogs--especially to big dogs, and especially when those big
dogs are their
occasional or frequent sex partners. They talk as equals, as if the
dog
understood them. Sometimes they even talked as inferiors, as
slaves."
"We were all quiet, watching. I circled around to Marsha who was
sitting on one
of the three steps that descended to the living room floor. The
entire house was
carpeted wall-to-wall in a deep-pile brown shag."
"Doreen smiled as she lay on her back. She said to everybody, 'Ohh,
I'm close
... I'm close ...' Then she pushed the girl away. 'Don't finish me.
I want my
superman now.' She meant Caesar."
"All our eyes shifted to the huge dog as Bill unhooked the leash
from his
collar. He didn't have to lean over to do it--that dog's neck was as
high as his
waist."
"Marsha said to me, 'Oh, God, Harry, look at the size of it.'"
"Caesar's penis was sliding out of its sheath under his loins. He
was straining
forward, leaning, waiting for his master to release him from the
'heel'
command."
"Caesar's penis was shockingly large. Dogs, I think, have a larger
penis for
their size than a man, so when you get a mastiff--big mastiff--you
have an
animal that is stronger and faster and quicker than a man his own
weight ... and
with a penis, a thick, pink rod of flesh, that makes the average man
look puny."
"Caesar's penis was like a reddish broom handle that kept
lengthening, sticking
out forward under his belly. It kept coming out and out and out."
"Marsha whispered in shocked amazement: 'That thing must be at least
eight
inches long!'"
"I had to agree with her. I'd never seen a man hung as large."
"Bill was playing it dramatically. He pointed to his wife lying
waiting, legs
open, on the large round hassock, and he said to Caesar, 'go fuck
Doreen.'"
"The dog didn't leap forward. But he went quickly, and that stiff
penis waggled
as he moved. He stopped close between her bony, open thighs and
snuffled her
crotch thoroughly, inhaling the smell of her and the other woman and
perhaps
even my residue of went."
"Doreen was grinning. She patted his head. She whispered loudly,
commandingly,
'Fuck, fuck, fuck, Caesar, fuck!'"
"Abruptly, he reared up and plopped his paws on each side of her
thin chest. He
was a monster standing over her small white body. His penis was all
the way out,
and I mean to tell you it was a magnet for every eye in the
room--that long,
thick, reddish pink handle. It was at least eight inches."
"Doreen opened her thighs still more. 'Fuck ... Fuck ...'"
"He did, too. He started jabbing at her vulva, blindly, and after
about the
sixth prod he found her vagina."
"His big back curved in that way dogs have when fucking, and he
danced his big
hind legs to get closer--and before anyone realized--he was smacking
that big
penis all the way into her."
"Doreen--you could see her belly bloat up and see her arms tighten
around his
neck--gave a funny indrawn, sucking gasp."
"I think every other woman gasped with her. I know Marsha did,
beside me. She
cringed and went 'Ooooh!'"
"That big stiff red pole went up into Doreen all the way. She took
it. It looked
to me like her eyes bulged, along with her stomach. Something had to
bulge,
because she's skinny with a small body and she must have been really
stretched
inside by that thing smacking up into her like that."
"It was smacking, too. Everyone heard it. He buried part of the end
of his
sheath in her vulva, too, with the thrusts he made."
"You've got to realize how big Caesar is! And how much power and
weight he has.
Getting fucked by an animal that big, with a penis that huge, for a
woman
Doreen's size--it must be a shattering experience, no matter how
many times it
has happened."
"It seemed that way with her. She was coming unglued almost at once.
You could
see her muscles tremble and spasm. Her mouth was wide open and she
was breathing
like a bellows."
"Marsha gripped my hand. She was frightened just seeing it. Nobody
could look
away or do anything but look. Caesar pounded away into her like a
steam-powered
battering ram."
"It must have lasted two or three minutes. Doreen's thin arms
tightened more and
more around Caesar's neck. It didn't faze him. All it did was lift
her off her
back. Her head was shaking like she had that nervous disease old
people get
sometimes."
"Caesar was panting, too. It takes a lot of wind and stamina to do
what he was
doing. He was obviously enjoying it, too, of course. In fact, he
came about
then--shot a helluva load into her. It ran out of her, too, while he
was still
pumping more into her. It squished out around his thick penis and
smeared the
plastic top of the hassock under her scrawny buttocks--thick creamy
stuff. And
it lathered the insides of her thighs and got into that heavy blonde
muff of
hers."
"Then Caesar just lost interest. He got down off her and looked
around at us
like a bored king. Bill called him over and fed him a handful of
cookies."
"Doreen just lay there quivery. Her left leg was jerking slightly
and her belly
was still jumping. What got me, though, was the way her vagina
stayed open--wide
open--an oval hole between her thighs, framed by that fringe of
thick pubic
hair. It was a pink, white-smeared tunnel."
"Then she rolled over onto her belly, her thighs closed, and people
stirred."
"Marsha went to Doreen. I followed. She helped Doreen up. 'Are you
all right?'"
"'Am I!' Doreen had a 'glory' expression."
"Marsha said, 'I don't see how you can ... manage him. He's so
big!'"
"Doreen only nodded. She started for the bathroom, Caesar's stuff
running out of
her, down her legs."
"Bill made fresh drinks for everyone. He said, 'In an hour I'll be
on the
hassock getting royally reamed in the ass.'"
"Caesar wasn't taken outside. He roamed the living room's levels,
wandering
among the guests, a massive animal. If he bumped you in passing, it
was you who
was thrown aside."
Doreen returned in her gold hotpants and blue sweater. She wiped off
the hassock
with a damp towel. She went away with the towel and returned
immediately. She
took a double scotch and sipped it."
"One of the other women--the one who had been giving Doreen
head--asked her,
'Doesn't it hurt?'"
"Doreen nodded. 'At first. It's like a telephone pole being shoved
in by a
giant. But that's only the shock of it all at once. After the first
few times of
having it go in and out like that I loosen up and it begins to feel
like--well,
the pain goes away, mostly, and it feels like I'm being totally
used. I'm
helpless and getting fucked like no man could ever fuck me, and it's
simply
glorious. The universe is what that giant is doing to me with that
giant prick.
I'm like a leaf in a storm. I'm like a worm on a hook.'"
"The woman said, 'He's certainly a magnificent beast.' She was
uneasy because
Caesar had pushed between her and Doreen and was sniffing at
Doreen's crotch."
"Doreen patted his head. 'You're a faithful lover, aren't you,
Caesar? He only
will fuck me and Bill.'"
"We were sophisticated--but the male guests couldn't quite imagine
themselves
submitting to sodomy by a dog--especially a dog with a penis the
size of
Caesar's."
"Nevertheless--Bill was quite open about it. He seemed to anticipate
it. He gave
Caesar an hour to recover, then went with him and with Doreen to the
hassock in
the center of the sunken living room."
"Bill had a tube of lubricant in his pocket and took it out. He
dropped his
pants and pushed down his underpants. He is one of those men with
hairy legs and
back. He knelt with his knees on the carpet and his stomach and arms
on top of
the hassock."
"Caesar knew what was coming. He trotted in circles around the
hassock,
watching, as Doreen slathered the lubricant into the crack between
Bill's
buttocks, and worked a finger into his anus."
"Bill wriggled his hips like a woman. He muttered something, and
Doreen worked a
second finger into him. She worked as deep as she could, loosening
him up."
"Then she called Caesar and said, 'Up, up, Caesar. Fuck, fuck ...'"
"The mastiff reacted like a button had been pushed. The word 'fuck'
made him
quiveringly alert. His penis started to slide down into view."
"Bill reached back and pulled his buttocks apart. His anus was
visible, a small,
brownish, puckered, closed opening. Caesar snorted and mounted Bill.
His big
front paws were planted on either side of Bill's shoulders."
"I noticed that Doreen had smeared some lubricant on her right hand.
She took
Caesar's long, stiff broom-handle of a penis in that hand and guided
the huge
dog's thrusts."
"Bill grunted when the end of Caesar's penis stabbed into his anus.
He gasped,
'Jesus!' and then groaned and grunted as the rest of the solid,
pinkish red
shaft was jabbed deep-deep-deep into his rectum with quick, vicious
thrusts."
"I winced the way Marsha had winced when Caesar had plunged into
Doreen earlier.
I could almost feel that big thing penetrating, ramming up into my
colon ... the
way it was into Bill's."
"Bill reached wide and hugged the round sides of the hassock. His
eyes were
closed tight. He groaned, 'Jesus God.'"
"Caesar panted and plunged eagerly. At least eight thick inches of
stiff mastiff
penis was pushed and pulled with startling, shocking speed in and
out of Bill's
rectum."
"Bill was breathing loud and fast through his nose. Caesar's plunges
into his
anus were driving Bill in reflex lunges forward on the top of the
hassock."
"Doreen sat on the floor and I watched. I couldn't see her face."
"Looking back on it, with Bill letting himself get fucked like that
by Caesar, I
think now Bill is a homo. Especially since Doreen likes to get it
that way. I
think Bill fucks her that way almost exclusively and probably
imagines she's a
boy while he's doing it."
"Anyway, Caesar fucked him hard and fast for about three minutes.
The breath was
rasping in and out of Bill and he started groaning toward the end of
it in a
special way. Like he was enjoying it ... very much."
"Finally Caesar squirted his stuff into Bill's rectum and pulled out
and walked
a little distance away and flopped down on the carpet on his side
and looked
around at everybody, his tongue hanging out, grinning at everybody."
"Bill got off the hassock slowly. As he raised up we all saw he had
a big hard
on, and there was a sticky little mesa of semen on his belly and on
the plastic
surface where his belly had pressed his penis."
"Bill grinned, too, a little bit self-consciously, I think. He said,
'Caesar
will be ready, willing, and able again in about an hour if there are
any
volunteers ...?' He pulled up his pants as he said this."
"But nobody wanted to make it with Caesar. The girls were afraid of
him--too
big. The other men didn't dig what Bill had just done."
"Getting back to Marsha and Khan ... the first time he mounted her
and fucked
her till she had an orgasm was on a Sunday morning. Ah, yes, I
remember it
well."
"It was a hot, sunshiny morning, and we were lying in bed naked,
with the sun
pouring in on us."
"Marsha said, 'Want to get sucked off?' She'll say things like that,
out of love
and goodheartedness. She's a great wife for me."
"I said, 'Sure, want me to get Khan?'"
"She nodded; she didn't blush. We'd been training him for months,
off and on. I
opened the bedroom door and called him. He trotted into the bedroom
immediately.
He knew."
"Marsha got into position and Khan immediately started licking her
crotch. I
started to get hard from seeing it."
"I was on the bed beside her and saw her reaction--she loved it. A
long 'ohhhh'
came from her throat and she turned her head to me. 'Give it to me.'
She meant I
was to feed her my penis."
"I said, 'In a minute.' I wanted to be sucked off by her while Khan
was fucking
her, if possible. I told her and she nodded okay. She gripped my
hand as Khan
licked her with that long, wet, rough tongue."
"I could see little muscles twitch and jump in her cheek. I said to
Khan, 'Good
boy. Keep it up, boy.' I reached down and petted his head. He rolled
his eyes at
me and kept on licking her. I saw his tongue-tip curl into her
vulva, right in
between the lips, for a good taste."
"He whined and licked into her again and again, as if relishing a
strange,
exotic sauce. Whatever is in her juices he likes it a lot."
"Marsha gripped my hand harder and harder. Her hips began to work in
slow
undulations. Her belly sucked in and released quickly. 'Harry ...'"
"I kissed her on the mouth. Her tongue leaped into my mouth and her
lips opened
like hot petals. She moaned into my mouth softly and fluttered her
tongue
madly."
"Then Khan seemed to tire of the licking game and on his own jumped
himself up
so he was in fucking position between her thighs at the edge of the
bed. He did
his little dance with his hind feet. His penis was out, stiff and
pink, and he
prodded at her crotch."
"Marsha broke our kiss when he jumped his forelegs up onto the bed
on either
side of her breasts. 'Oh, good boy, Khan.' She stroked his sides and
reached
under to guide his penis. She held the end of the sheath, since his
exposed pink
shaft was very sensitive."
"Marsha was very intent. I could see pure lust in her eyes,
unashamed lust. It's
hard to describe--a kind of intent look, and kind of glazed, too.
She was
breathing fast."
"Suddenly she got him into her and he thumped all of his penis into
her
instantly, and kept banging away as fast as he could."
" 'OH!' Marsha jerked and shuddered and started to come. She threw
her head
back, then from side to side. She managed to gasp, 'OH, GOOD BOY,
KHAN!'"
"I patted him and moved up to present my penis to her lips. She saw
it and moved
her head to allow me to push it into her mouth."
"I was aware of Khan's head and shoulders close by--he was watching
us as he
fucked her. It was unusual. But it gave an added thrill to the
action. I was as
hard as I've been in years. Tingling."
"I fed Marsha about four inches and filled her mouth. She sucked me
deliciously--fervently, in a kind of frantic urgency, and in a state
of extreme
arousal. In fact, she was trembling on the brink of orgasm. She was
writhing,
clutching Khan's neck with one arm and urging me with a hand on my
buttocks to
thrust all my penis down into her mouth, into her throat. Her hot
breath hissed
around my glans in her mouth. Her tongue lashed and slithered on
it."
"But I didn't press all the way in; she needed her air too much. She
was panting
heavily. She closed her eyes tight and spasmed, trembling with
pleasure as Khan
kept on punching his penis into her, driving hard, rubbing the tip
of his furry
white sheath into her open cleft."
"All the while he was fucking her, Khan lolled his tongue, did his
little two-
footed dance between her thighs, and panted, too, in the
quick-breathing way of
animals."
"I was close, getting the old familiar hot glow of sensation and
deep tingling
that meant the peak was rolling up to the surface."
"Marsha's mouth became a scalding heaven for me. In the throes of
her orgasm she
did something special with her mouth and tongue a kind of rippling
clutch that
milked my penis and brought me off right then, almost instantly."
"She was moaning loudly on and around my penis, and sucking like a
maniac. I
shot deep into her mouth. I was staring down at her and her opened
eyes were
glazed--she hardly knew where she was, only that her mouth was full
of my
spurting penis and she was being fucked incredibly fast."
"She swallowed automatically and gasped and gurgled and swallowed
more as her
clutching mouth and tongue refused to let my penis be withdrawn. Her
hand on my
buttocks still urged me deeper."
"Then she abruptly turned her head, my penis slipped from her lips,
and she was
gasping like a bellows, her chest rising and falling under Khan. Her
nipples
were hard little red spikes."
"Marsha gave a series of short, sharp groans, almost like barks. Her
eyes closed
tight. She clutched Khan with both arms, so that he had trouble
getting enough
curve into his spine that down-arch that drives his whole rump and
loins."
"Khan was frantic, too, and was making it. He growled softly,
pantingly, and
tried to hug Marsha with his forelegs, to dig his paws under her in
a way, for
better leverage."
"I confess I get a tremendous kick out of seeing Khan's penis belt
in and out of
her that way--it's incredible. I can understand why it gives her so
much
pleasure, purely as a physical thing--having that long, thin penis
pistoning in
her while the furry sheath hits her open vulva and tickles the hell
out of her
clitoris at the same time. That sheath--or fur-covered scabbard
would be a
better way of describing it--seems almost designed to fit into the
gaping vulva
of a woman when she's got her thighs wide open and is hot and
bothered."
"Marsha tells me the sensation is indescribable. She gets a funny
look in her
eyes when she talks about it. And as a matter of fact, we don't fuck
much
anymore. She hasn't really wanted it from me for ... since just
after she made
it with Khan. Hmm. Should I be jealous?"
"No, seriously, it's okay with me. I like to see her enjoy life, and
Khan, too.
He enjoys fucking her. We're a family now."
"That sounds weird, but it's true. Almost every night we have him
into the
bedroom, and sometimes during the day."
"I don't know--maybe she and Khan go at it during the day when I'm
working. It
wouldn't surprise me. It wouldn't disturb me. She used to use the
vibrator a lot
when I wasn't home, so ..."
"I don't miss fucking her. I actually prefer her mouth. She is an
expert at it,
and when she sucks me when she's supremely aroused--like when Khan
is licking
her or fucking her--wowee, does she go to town and get me off
beautifully!"
"And watching them together is a kick for me--I told you that--yes,
and--well, I
suggested we think about a bigger dog in a few years, when Khan is
old. A Great
Dane or a mastiff. That would thrill me seeing Marsha take the penis
of a full-
grown mastiff. Wham-wham-wham! Eight inches into her like a steam
hammer."
"But you know women--she's afraid of something that big. She likes
Khan's size.
So I suppose that's the way it'll be."
"The future--well, eventually, I suppose we'll get tired of Khan.
Even Marsha
will."
"We're in contact with a small group--a few couples--who are
experimenting with
a fucking machine. A real machine. Some of the husbands are
mechanical--in the
aircraft industry and electronics and they're putting one together
in a
basement. It's for the women, a kind of masturbation of them,
effortless.
They'll just lie down, fit themselves to the size dildoe they put on
the
machine, and turn it on. Dials for speed and depth of thrust and
everything.
They claim it's for science, for sexology research. With the way
things are
going, you never can tell--they might end up selling it to some
government
research group for a million dollars. Can't you just see the clerks
in the
patent office when ..."
"I'm waiting for the suck-off machine to come along. That'll be
quite a
civilization we'll have--sex between men and women will be obsolete
because the
machines will perform better and never get tired or cranky or ..."
"Of course that's the far future. For me, I don't think I'll ever
find anyone
better suited to me than Marsha."
Chapter 3
A Donkey Named Peter
The Kinsey reports tell us that women are known to give cunnilingus
to cows and
mares, sheep and goats. They fellate donkeys and manage coitus with
bulls,
stallions, donkeys, and ponies. Not always for "show" purposes, but
because they
prefer it and like it.
Most bestiality on farms is between boys and animals. Dr. Frank
Caprio details
this in Variations in Sexual Behavior, but "most" means some
bestiality is
between girls and women and animals.
And Dr. Rosenberger, in Bestiality, suggests it is of greater
incidence: "It is
believed by many medical authorities that the percentage for women
is even
higher!"
Thus it is not too surprising that an adult woman could or would
involve herself
sexually with a donkey. Given the circumstances described below by a
retired
veterinarian it is highly credible.
Howie is sixty-five years old and a retired veterinarian. He used to
live in a
mountain state, in a poor country that was mostly scratch farms and
rocks.
I met him when I stopped at a local park for a few moments to watch
a
shuffleboard match.
Howie is a garrulous, white-haired, small, portly man who, when I
first met him
and later when I interviewed him in depth, was wearing violent red
suspenders
and a wildly colorful Hawaiian shirt ... with gray pants and
wing-tip brogues
... and a straw hat.
He was soaking up the sun, peering through sunglasses and talking at
anyone who
came near.
He vented a constant flow of information about himself, about life,
about his
circumstances, about his former profession, about people and life in
general:
'Well, you know, the grave is the last place anyone expects to end
up, even when
he's got one foot in it."
The bad thing about working with animals is you have to put up with
their
owners.
"With Social Security I get lots of society but damn little
security."
Howie isn't very original but he talks fast, he has a pleasant lilt
to his
slightly nasal voice, and he uses his hands like an orchestra
conductor.
After a few minutes of talking about himself, he asked me why I was
free in the
middle of the afternoon. I told him I was my own boss--a writer ...
and
inevitably I told him my specialty."
"Things I could tell you if you're interested ... things happen on
farms you
wouldn't believe. People and animals are isolated--snowed in--for
months on end;
some pretty hairy things happen."
"Yes, air, and not just with the men doing things with cows and
sheep and mares
and pigs ... that's common. What I mean is the farm women sometimes
out there in
the mountains without men. Widows ... women in their forties
sometimes, with a
lot of vinegar left in them, they do some strange things to scratch
that old sex
itch."
"No one out there, to tell on them, you see. Animals won't tell.
Well, that
ain't true exactly, either. An animal will tell a vet a lot in small
ways ...
there's ways of telling what's been goin' on, to a trained eye. I
could tell you
..."
Of course I invited him to my place with the understanding I would
make a
recording of what he said, but would alter names and places, if
specific names
and places were mentioned, and when they were mentioned."
That was agreeable to Howie; he loved to talk, and "Talking
down-and-dirty about
sex--that's my favorite kind of talk."
I laid in a supply of beer to keep his throat well oiled at his
hinted request
and he showed up exactly when he said he'd be by.
"I used to laugh my fool head off when a cow or heifer or a mare or
filly'd get
colic or something and I'd be called out to a farm. If there was a
boy on the
farm in his teens maybe, or a young hand, and he was hanging around
looking
worried about the animal and he didn't own the animal, then right
away I knew
he'd been dipping it in on the sly and was scared I'd find out some
way."
"You know, sometimes the young ones would be worried sick they'd
caused the
animal to be sick. Some figured sure as hell the animal was pregnant
from him
and was goin' to have a half-man foal or something."
"But what raised the hair on the back of my neck was when a woman
was the one
who was worried about a stud animal, worried in a certain way. Hard
to describe
what I mean. Didn't come across it too much, but ..."
"Well, there was a time like that about thirty years ago during the
war. This
young woman was stuck on a farm and her husband was off in the
Army--in North
Africa, I think--and she was just putting in her time, not farming
the land. She
lived off the allotment checks. That was a hard, lonely life for her
with
nothing but a radio and a donkey for company."
"Turned out that donkey ... name was Peter, as I remember ... turned
out that
donkey was a lot more than company for her."
"How I got into it was this way: the animal turned croupy some time
in, oh, I
guess it was February or so of '43, and she came in to my office to
have me come
out to see to it."
Now I remember this in detail, in vivid detail, what comes later,
because it is
something you do not see every day or every year or every decade,
even. Seeing a
pretty woman getting poled by a donkey is a sight to see!"
"Now I got to set this scene for you, so you bear with me now. I
liked this
woman, let's just call her Bess since I don't want to give her, real
first name
and you don't want me to anyway."
"I liked Bess, and I had an idea I might get close to her if she had
a yen for
it and didn't mind cheating on her husband a little."
"Bess was a pretty woman ... damned pretty ... with long chestnut
brown hair
hanging straight down, like your hippie girls wear hair now, and
Bess kept her
hair long and combed shiny. Never saw a speck of dandruff in her
hair. And she
was tall for a woman, too, about five-nine or so, and solid. Not
fat, not chunky
or too hippy. She had a figure on her! Curves in the right places. A
nice big
pair of milkers an her, meat on her bones, but not a bit too much.
Fine, shapely
woman, oh, about thirty-three years old or so."
"She had a proud look to her. Kept her head up all the time and
looked everybody
right square in the eye."
"You could have knocked me over with a straw when I saw what I saw
that day a
couple weeks later."
"Right away I went along to her place--about fifteen miles out--and
dosed that
animal with some new stuff that was out that was good for the croup.
Peter--the
donkey--was wheezin' and coughin' pretty bad. That was when I got
the cold
feeling along my neck--the way she stood over him and had to be sure
he'd get
better. She was in love with that animal, more'n she loved her
husband. I could
tell. The little barn was neat, clean, everything painted, fresh
hay, feed, oh,
she was pampering that stud."
"What made me sick and sure was how clean that animal was. She must
have given
him shampoos and put perfume on him ... for all I know she maybe
wiped his
asshole after he shit. He was that clean."
"But what clinched it for me was the way that animal reacted to her.
He brayed
soft-like, and looked at her--followed her with his eyes everywhere
she went in
that barn."
"And if she got close and petted him, stroked his neck like, then
that pecker of
his started to come out into sight. Slid out like a pink bone, it
did."
"I noticed it and she saw me look and she turned red--just colored
up like a
girl seeing her first naked man."
"She stopped touching that animal then. She moved away fast and
turned away and
went out to the house to get me a drink of something."
"But I knew. I had the stomach flops for a few minutes, thinking
about it."
"And over in a corner of the barn, maybe twenty feet away, was this
narrow
little mattress with a blanket sewn around it. Not more than two
feet wide and
three feet long--it was a baby's mattress, from a crib. Had to be,
now I think
on it. Always puzzled me. Now I figure it out thirty years later.
The mind of
man is a wondrously stupid thing, sometimes."
"Well, I couldn't figure at the time what that little mattress was
for. When I
came back two weeks later without her knowing I'd be visiting ... I
found out my
suspicions were right."
"What a sight--Bess on her hands and knees on that mattress under
that animal,
her getting poled with that pink bone like there was no tomorrow!"
"I admit, I admit, there's a lot of pure dirty curiosity in me, and
a good
handful of voyeur in me, too. I've seen things on the sly that few
men ever
see."
"Seen lots of men and boys poling animals. Some were right out in
the open about
it with me. They didn't think it wrong at all. They figured it
didn't matter one
way or the other, since it's only an animal, and it feels good."
"One old coot of a prospector used to bang his donkey mare all the
time--for
years--out in the mountains while he was panning out stake money and
looking for
a big strike."
"Lots of widowers take to their cows. Can't say I blame them. No
woman will live
on them scratch farms with 'em. Those men got no place else to go
and nothin'
else they can do. A man needs some pleasure and a man's pecker gets
pretty
demanding."
"So you get the rare woman who takes to a stallion donkey or maybe a
colt ...
not too surprisin' under some situations."
"Usually, though, a woman can always find a man, if she needs
company and some
fun in bed. No call to start using an animal. Most men will travel a
long way to
bed a woman."
"And you take a handsome young woman like Bess! Well ... maybe she
figured it
wasn't adultery if she did it with Peter, her donkey. Just an
animal, you see,
just an animal."
"I don't know her psychology. I'm only speculating. Had to be
something a little
loose in her mind, though."
"Trouble is, and I speak frankly now, trouble is, once a woman gets
a taste of
the right animal--you know, once she gets one of them big poles in
her and an
animal whomps it into her a time or two--then she's no good for a
man after
that. Once a woman gets a taste of that kind of fucking ... she's
spoiled. She
won't ever be full satisfied with a mere man again."
"Yes, I'm gettin' to it. As I said, I went back to Bess's farm a
couple weeks
later with the excuse in my mind to check up on Peter."
"Actually, I drove up there in the early evening with the idea maybe
I'd get to
see something. Well, I'll confess to you ... I went on out to her
place and
snuck around in the bushes six times before I hit."
"Left my car around the hill and walked in half a mile each time.
Crept up and
saw a light in the barn."
"Crept up to the barn and peeked in through a crack between those
old, warped
boards. Big enough to get a good look-see."
"It like to took my breath away. I was right on the money. There was
Bess
pushing that little mattress under Peter. She had him haltered and
boxed into a
corner so he couldn't move very much and maybe do her damage with
his hooves."
"She had a robe on, I guess, wrapped around her and from where I was
looking,
her bent over and a lot of leg showing, and her big milkers jiggling
and hanging
loose when she moved, I got me the idea she was stark naked
underneath."
"My heart started pumping heavy, let me tell you. But I could tell I
wasn't
going to get a good view from where I was looking, so I crept slow
and quiet
around to where Peter was tied up against the wall and found me
another good
crack to look in through."
"Bess had electricity for the house, but it wasn't strung for the
barn, so she
had an oil lantern hung up on a spike in a post near Peter."
"I could see in fine, but she couldn't see me peeking in. Shadows in
the cracks
and such."
"Bess was kneeling beside that donkey, rubbing his neck and sides
and sort of
crooning to him, saying words I couldn't get. But I was looking
through a crack
low enough down for me to see his pole sliding out."
"Now let me tell you a few things about a donkey. Most city people
don't know
beans about animals, 'specially a donkey. A donkey is like a very
small horse,
but shaggier, and his ears are longer. He comes up to a man's
stomach with his
body and he'll look you in the eye with his head up. A donkey'll
weigh three--
four times what a man does. So you can expect a donkey's pecker is a
mighty size
for a woman to get around."
"When Peter's pecker came easing down I was in a good position to
see it--I
wasn't more than three or four feet away, actually. And that thing
was like ...
well, like a child's arm from fist to elbow, just about that size.
Kind of a wet
purple in color. Mean-looking thing. My belly was knotting up tight,
from
anticipating Bess taking that ugly pole into her passage."
"Meanwhile, Bess was kneeling beside the animal and her hands were
moving closer
and closer under his barrel of a chest, down into the shaggy
yellow-white hair
of his underbelly."
"She got her left hand on that wet purple thing and started playing
with it,
running her fingers up and down on it, and getting her hand around
it and
starting to kind of jack him off."
"Peter started gettin' frisky with her doing that to him. He brayed
a lot, but
not too loud, and he stomped the floorboards good. And he tossed his
head and
turned his neck to look at her."
"Bess let go of his pole and opened up her robe and let it fall off
her
shoulders. Oh, what a woman she was. I've never seen a woman to
match her since,
and I've seen my share."
"She was very white--white skin all over--and built like that ol'
brick
shithouae, you know? Had a pair of milkers on her ... came out to
here with
beautiful, red, crinkled up teats. You'd swear she had a half-gallon
of milk in
them breasts of hers, they were so swollen and stuck-out and round.
You'd swear
it would be a kindness to her to start suckin' on them."
"And she had an ass on her ... each half nice and smooth and round
... and legs
like you see in the movies."
"Only thing not perfect about Bess was her left foot, which was
clubbed, from
when she was born, and she walked with a limp and had to wear a
special shoe.
Shoes for her cost up to fifty dollars, I heard once. Still and all,
everybody
figured her husband got a bargain, marrying her."
"But maybe that clubfoot made her a little odd In the head. Kids can
be cruel to
crippled kids, and I bet she got bent in the head when she was
young. Maybe
that's why she took to that donkey. Or maybe it was those long,
cold, dark
mountain winters."
"But there I was crouchin' outside that barn lookin' in through a
crack in the
boards ... and there she was crawlin' in under that donkey, with him
stampin'
and slobberin' from the mouth, all ready to go, with that long
pecker all slid
out."
"I frankly didn't think any woman could hope to encompass all that
much pole. I
frankly didn't think any woman had that much of a hole in her."
"But Bess ... I'm telling you. She crawled under that animal with
her ass
rubbing the end of that big pecker, and she's on all fours, like an
animal
herself, and she gits on her hands and knees under him, between his
four legs,
like it was a natural thing. I got a cold chill seeing her in that
position.
Wasn't anything to the creepy feeling I got when she and him started
fucking."
"Bess reached back under between her legs and grabbed that pole and
put the end
of it into herself. That was a thick chunk to get in, too, let me
tell you. And
Peter didn't make it any easier for her. He was moving around as
much as he
could, and beginning to shove, too."
"But she got it into herself and when he felt that he up and clopped
his front
feet up on a shelf, just like held been trained to, I expect, and
this gave him
a purchase and an angle he needed, like he was mounting a
she-donkey, and he got
that first big shove into her good."
"I could hear everything pretty good. That board wall was a sieve
for sound, and
when that pole slammed into her, Bess let out a grunt with a squeal
on the end
of it you could've heard for a hundred yards."
"Of course she didn't limit herself that way. She figured she was
alone for ten
miles every way around. So she let herself go. She talked to that
animal like he
was human."
"What she did--she leaned forward when he shoved, and leaned back
when he pulled
back, and that way she wasn't impaled all at once, and she didn't
lose him,
either. She had it all worked out."
"Even so ... she didn't match him right a couple times and that
pecker fell out
of her. She had to reach back and put it back in."
"And a lot of times--'specially toward the end--she or he lost the
rhythm and
she took nearly all of that pole--SMACK--whole! and boy, she howled
good. But it
was a good-feelin' howl, I could tell. She liked it even if it did
near stretch
her box to the limit. She had it plow into her like that over a
dozen times, I
imagine, and her whole body would snap tight like a jolt of
electricity had gone
through her."
"I think that fucking lasted a good ten minutes. She got to where
she was out of
her mind, had her hands straight forward on the boards, pushing
herself back on
that mighty pecker that was plowing into her, right up into her. I
didn't
believe a woman could find room for a pecker that big around and
that long. I
sure as hell ain't seen the like since."
"You take a look at a seven or eight-year-old's arm sometime, from
the fist to
the elbow, and you try to imagine that's a purple donkey pole
getting shoved up
into a handsome young woman, naked, in a barn ... The things people
will do."
"I got to admit I was sweating while watching all this. I got the
hot chills
from seeing it. And my right hand was down in my pants, rubbing away
good."
"But Bess was the one who was really enjoying that fucking she was
getting. She
was grunting every time it went in ... and usually it went in only
about two-
thirds. She was drooling a little, too, and not knowing or caring
about it. The
woman was out of her mind. I don't know what it feels like to be a
woman,
getting fucked like that animal was fucking her, and I don't want
to."
"The cap on it was when the animal shot his wad into her. He got
wild and was
fucking her so hard I thought she'd get ruptured. She was having
that pole all
the way in, having it shoved in with a couple hundred pounds of
impact."
"She was helpless, like a worm taking a hook. Except she kept
pushing back for
more each time he pushed her forward."
"I have to say she shocked me. I was squatting outside, peering in
through that
crack in the boards, beating my meat, watching it all, and I was
hypnotized.
Bess's milkers were wobbling under her, like round white pots. Her
head was
hanging down, and her long hair was trailing on the blanket over the
little
mattress."
"And all this was in that yellow light from the lantern and with all
that
fucking causing shadows. And that animal was breathing loud and
fast, like a
windstorm. And he kept clomping his hooves on the boards and braying
once in a
while ... and shoving that pole into her as fast as he could. He
couldn't get
enough into her, it looked like, and she was grunting when he got
most or all of
it in, grunting like a big man had slugged her in the gut."
"When that animal shot his wad it was like a fountain of cream had
backed up in
her. It came shooting out around his pole from her insides, like a
pump. Each
time he shoved into her he shot more into her hole and each time
when he got in
deep enough the pressure would squirt the stuff out of her."
"I guess I was pop-eyed seeing all that. I had a handful of my own
stuff
shooting out into my pants, I admit that. Got nothing to hide. Not
at this late
date."
"Bess was grunting and howling like crazy while that animal was
shooting in her.
It was enough to turn me gray. Didn't know whether to run in there
and stop it
or not."
"Then it was over. Peter brayed loud once and started to struggle to
get his
front legs down off that shelf made of two-by-fours."
"Bess got out from under him quick. She looked punch-drunk, and she
was dripping
a steady flow of his stuff out of her hole."
"She stood up and helped him down. Then she put some extra oats in
his feed
trough and put on her robe again. She limped out of the barn with
the lantern
and went into the house."
"I went back to my car down the road and drove home. I was pretty
wrung out, and
I guess Bess slept good that night, too."
"The thing is, you see, I couldn't let it alone. I wanted to see
that happen
again, and stirrin' in my mind was a strong yen to do things with
Bess myself."
"Now, I knew I had an ace to play, having seen what she did with old
Peter. But
I figured a picture would be something powerful to get my way with."
"Understand, I was a young man then, and I had a lot of Piss and
vinegar in me.
And good lookin' women were hard to find in that county."
"I'm not too particular how I get my way, sometimes. I figured Bess
was fair
game. All I needed was a good lever."
"I wasn't too nice a guy in those days. I was 4-F because of ulcers
and the fact
that the county draft board figured I was essential to the area,
being the only
vet for fifty miles or so."
"I had a good camera, used it to take picture of animals for records
and such.
Did some picture-taking at the county fairs--prize animals and such
as that, for
the local weekly."
"So ... you guessed it, yes, I haunted Bess's farm every afternoon
and early
evening for a week before she got her yen up for that donkey's
pole."
"I got my hopes up one afternoon, but she was full-dressed and
carrying a
bucket. She spent an hour combing and brushing and wiping that
animal."
"I kept coming back each day. I'm a persistent cuss, sometimes. I
figured she'd
set him up again in the same place, so he could rear up and get his
front feet
on that shelf ... so I sneaked up to the barn and I whittled out
that crack so
it was wide enough to take a picture through. Then I rubbed dirt on
the cut
parts so she wouldn't notice right away."
"Well, she came out to the barn one early evening, and I was
a-waiting. Camera
ready. I wasn't sure what kind of picture I'd get with only that
lantern for
light, but I had a big lens and I could open 'er up to one point
five and I
figured a tenth of a sec would do 'er. Had that fast double film."
"She had a little bit of hard candy for Peter. She fed it to him in
the palm of
her hand and stroked his neck and scratched his ears good. He
smelled her. She
had on the same robe and from the way her milkers jiggled and her
teats stuck
out, I could make a good guess she was mother naked under it."
"Sure enough, she led him over to the same place and pulled that
blanket-covered
little mattress over. Then she let her robe fall ... and all that
beautiful
white body was there to see. Those big milkers. I remember thinking
it was a
waste she never had any kids."
"I clicked me a couple shots of her naked like that. She didn't hear
the shutter
with all the stomping and hay-crackling that was going on."
"She hugged him around the neck and whispered in his ear--I could
see his ear
turn and twitch. I took a picture of that, too--her pressing herself
against him
like that."
"In fact, she rubbed herself against him. That shaggy brown coat of
his turned
her on, I guess. She hugged his neck and rubbed her teats against
him till they
were hard as dried cherries. They looked a lot juicier, though. Made
my mouth
water. Big and fat and wrinkled."
"She was hot to trot. She knelt down like before and got a hold of
Peter's
pecker--it was out all the way, of course. Near as thick as her
wrist."
"It was possible for me to see her crotch--I was lookin' in under
the animal--
and she was wet there, the lips of her twat was juicy, almost drippy
with that
natural slippery stuff."
"She had a hold of that big pecker and was skinning her hand along
it--back and
forth, making him stomp and jitter."
"I took a picture of it, but the light under there was bad because
she was
blocking it with her body, mostly."
"But then she turned kind of sideways and put her hand down between
her legs and
slid two--three fingers into herself. She did it easy and I realized
how
stretched she had to be from taking that huge pecker, God only knows
how many
times."
"The light fell on her just right, so I clicked a picture of it. I
had enough
right then--her with her hand on that pole and the other hand in
herself. I had
enough to get her to do my will if the pictures came out."
"In fact, she sort of froze for a couple seconds, like she maybe
heard that
shutter-click, and she looked around fast and nervous, wild-eyed,
but she didn't
think of looking at the knothole I had made. I guess I was lucky the
light
didn't reflect off the lens and give me away."
"She listens hard for a while, her head cocked just so ... but I was
froze, too,
hardly breathing, and good old Peter kept stompin' and breathing
heavy."
"Finally she decided she'd been imaginin' things, and got interested
in that big
pecker again. She played with it a while and got that animal beside
himself. I
thought she was just going to masturbate him the way she was pumping
that pole."
"And the thing I took some pictures of was her hand in her twat. She
sat on that
little mattress like a Buddha, legs crossed, and wide open. You get
the
picture--facing the wall, which meant facing me and my camera, and
she kept on
playing with that big stiff pecker with one hand and with the other
hand she
worked herself into a blue-tailed tizzy. She got so she had half her
hand inside
her twat, just jamming it in and out, except for her thumb. Had all
her fingers
sliding in and out right past the knuckles."
"Well, the reason she didn't see the lens and the big hole I'd cut
was that
Peter's belly was in the way, mostly, and his hide was so shaggy she
had to bend
over way low to see all the way under him."
"Peter brayed loud a couple times, like he was telling her to get on
under him
so he could fuck her."
"She said--and I can hear her voice clear in my mind even now--she
said in a
sexy voice, Just shook up with passion: 'Yes, honey, right away.
Right now.'"
"She'd she pushed that small mattress under him and got in there
with his belly
hair tickling her back. He clopped around in place and then reared
up with his
front hooves on that shelf, like he'd been trained to do."
"Him up like that gave me more light. I got her in perfect profile
as she
reached under between her legs and got a hold of his pecker."
"Then, I think before she realized it, he nailed her with that big
ugly pole.
Right into her like a battering ram!"
"His hind quarters give that jerk and she got that purple arm right
on up into
her belly so far you'd swear she'd bust open."
"She gave out that squeal-grunt and was knocked forward. Then he
pulled back for
an other run in and pulled all the way out."
"I was ready the second time. When she put that pole in position I
got a shot of
her face, too, looking under herself, the light good enough for an
exposure. She
was so interested in what was coming she didn't hear the shutter."
"She give out a 'OH!' when he smacked into her again, but she moved
forward with
it and didn't get the full size, then she moved backward when he
pulled. I
watched it to the end. I was practically hypnotized."
"Bess got so worked up she was yelling, 'SHOVE IT IN ... SHOVE IT IN
...' each
time. She was lathered with sweat at the end, and staring
glassy-eyed."
"I watched that pole drive into her all the way just before Peter
blew his wad
... and it was her doing, too--she braced herself and took it up
into her belly.
She was suckin' air and groanin' and grunting each time, but she
loved it. She
pressed back, kept pressing back after he knocked her forward."
"Peter, he brayed and snorted and went a little wild
himself--slammin' that long
wicked thing into her, his flanks heavin', his hooves beginning to
splinter the
floorboards ..."
"Then it started gushing out of her, splattering down on her legs
and on the
floor and all."
"It left her weak, I could see that. Her arms and legs trembled and
she
staggered like a drunk for a minute, getting her robe on."
"I crept away. I was creamin' my pants to get the films developed.
About two
hours later down in my basement darkroom, I knew I had something. I
had to
overdevelop that roll a lot, but I got good negatives and good
prints."
"There she was, it was Bess all right, getting stiffed by that ugly
donkey
pecker. There was Bess stark naked, hugging the animal and pressing
her teats
against him, smiling."
"I had a good deal of satisfaction in those photographs. I made two
sets of
prints, and I hid those negatives good."
"Then, along about four days later, I made me a visit out to her
place."
"Like I said before, I'm a mean bugger when I want to be, and I was
itchy for
her then. If she could see getting fucked by her donkey, she sure as
hell
wouldn't turn me down for any good reason, even if she was married."
"That was quite a scene we had in her house. I'll skip all the
shadowboxing and
how she acted all innocent at first, then angry and insulted and
outraged--that
all went by the board when I showed her those photos."
"She got so pale ... the blood just ran out of her head. Then she
looked up and
got fiery-red--tomato red and she just seemed to come apart. One
minute she was
a proud, angry woman, and the next minute--just crumpled up, sobbing
like her
heart was busting, hiding her face in her hands, huddled over on the
sofa."
"I felt like a royal bastard, but I felt good, too, with those
photos giving me
power over her."
"Standing straight, Bess was about an inch taller than me. I'm not a
big man,
you know--five feet seven, without shoes on. And I find the older I
get I shrink
down, too."
"But that was my time to be in control. I had her. I told her what
would happen
to her if I told the sheriff what she was doing with that animal,
and showed him
the proof. How she'd be arrested and everybody would know--how it
would be
whispered around, how the judge would send her to the insane asylum
forever, how
it was in the state hospital with those crazy women shitting
anywhere they felt
like it, yelling and screaming, and gabbling and puking and talking
to
themselves and even attacking her if they felt like it, how she'd
never get out
of there, they'd keep her there till she died, considering what she
did.
"I laid it on thick. Most of it was true, of course. The mental
hospitals in
that state are snake pits, and everybody knows it."
"She was shaking so hard I could barely understand her at first--but
she was
waking up that I wanted something."
"I just said it plain. 'Bess,' I said, 'I want to climb in bed with
you and have
us some fun, that is all.'"
"She looked at me like I was a bug, but those pictures were
scattered on the
floor and she was a fine one to complain."
"She didn't want to. She said she loved her husband, she said this
and she said
that, but I just knocked down everything she said. She couldn't talk
me out of
it."
"Finally she realized it, I had all the power. So she finally nodded
and asked
me, 'Now?' and I said yes, and we went into the bedroom."
"It was embarrassing at first for me. I'd never forced myself on a
woman before.
You should believe that. It was one of those times ... out there in
that lonely,
rocky country, with nothing much to do ... it was one of those times
when a man
acts like a man. Not like an animal. I had her in my power and I
knew I could
make her do anything and she wouldn't make trouble. That's a
situation few men
can leave alone."
"We got naked and I spent a good hour with my hands on her body,
feeling her all
over ... especially those beautiful milkers of hers. Like white
satin, with
those upstanding teats. Her breasts were so round and full. Didn't
sag hardly at
all."
"I sucked on those teats like a thirsty baby--like a newborn colt
sucks on his
mother. And I got them teats to stick up hard, too."
"I wanted to work her up in spite of herself I wanted her to get hot
and want me
for a man."
"But as soon as I started fooling with her between the legs I knew I
couldn't
satisfy her. I slid my finger down there and it went in easy, even
with her not
being wet naturally."
"She was stretched so much--there was no elasticity left there. She
didn't
shrink tight again after God knows how many times she'd been fucked
by that
giant donkey pecker."
"She was no good for a man. I'm not hung like a donkey. I'm on the
small size as
far as a man goes. I didn't think of that ahead of time--her being
so big and
loose inside."
"I put three fingers in her and was feeling around, curious as to
how she could
be so big."
"You might find this hard to believe, what I did, but it's God's
truth, so help
me. I bunched my fingers and put my thumb in between--see, like
this--and pushed
my whole hand into her."
"I've got a small hand for a man anyway, of course, but I'm telling
you it was a
funny feelin'--and a strange sight--to see my whole hand disappear
up into her
twat like that."
"It was a little tight at the entrance, but a twist and push and the
hand was in
... and it was warm and wet in there, with little knobs and things
up in there."
"She was surprised, too, but it did what I wanted ... it seemed to
turn her on
good. She sat up on her elbows and stared down at my arm between her
open legs
like that, and blushed something like pure pink. She wouldn't look
at me, only
at my arm down there."
"I asked her if she wanted me to fuck her with my hand. She said I
could do
whatever I wanted. She only wanted me to get it over with and
leave."
"I said I wanted to have her enjoy it, too. She didn't say anything.
I
experimented with my hand all the way in her. I felt around in there
and made
her jump and inhale when I stuck a finger into her cervix, right
into her womb.
The little mouth spasmed and dilated on my finger. She started to
gasp. She said
it hurt."
"I took my finger out of it and curled my fingers closed over my
thumb ... into
a fist, the way girls make a fist sometimes."
"That stretched her, too, and she winced. Then I started fucking her
in there
with my fist. Easy and slow at first. It was a short stroke about
three inches
leeway in, her."
"She didn't say anything at first. She just watched. Her long brown
hair was
beautiful the way it fell past her white shoulders and partly lay,
on her full
breasts."
"It was hard work, driving my fist in her like that--it was like
pushing and
pulling in warm molasses, because after a few minutes I noticed she
started to
clamp down inside and at the opening, with her muscles."
"Bess started to breathe deeper, too, and her legs opened up more
and her hips
started to move. I kept watching, with her. I couldn't believe I was
doing it,
either. My whole hand in her to the wrist ... almost up to my
wristwatch. I wore
an old Waltham, then. And I remember wondering if I could push in
till the watch
disappeared, too."
"I tried, but she grunted and said it hurt too much."
"I noticed that each time I pushed my fist deep into her, her vulva
and her
clitoris were sort of pulled in, too. I noticed that her clitoris
got rubbed on
my wrist each time it was pulled down and in. I figure that was what
happened
with the donkey pole--it was so thick and long it pulled the
clitoris down and
rubbed it, too."
"After a few minutes I could tell she was liking it. She got some
color in her
cheeks and some spark in her eyes."
"I kept it up and sure enough, she said for me to do it faster and
harder. It
embarrassed her to say that, to tell me, but she couldn't hide what
was
happening to her, and maybe she didn't really care. Maybe she
figured having a
man force her that way wasn't really adultery and being unfaithful."
"I started in working my arm like a piston in a cylinder--like you
see on the
side of a steam locomotive--shuff--shuff--shuff--shuff ..."
"Bess started to lose herself in it. She was panting and
gruntin'--just like
when Peter's pecker was shovin' into her."
"I think she almost forgot me. Her eyes closed and her mouth opened
and she was
shaking and jerking like crazy."
"She had her an orgasm--a damn good one and my arm was tired as
hell. The closer
she got to coming the more she clamped down on my hand and wrist
till my arm and
shoulder was tired as hell, actually trembling with fatigue."
"Truth is, I was glad to pull my hand out of her. Thought for a
minute she'd
never let it go."
"I figured I had a favor coming from her. I knew I couldn't get any
satisfaction
putting my little dink in her there, so I rolled over on my back and
put it to
her plain, in five-cent words. I said, 'Okay, Bess, now how about
you using your
mouth?'"
"I started playin' with her teats again, waiting for her to say
something."
"She said she'd never done that before with any man, including her
husband. So I
said it was about time she learned."
"She said no and I said yes, and we got to almost yelling. Finally I
had to grab
her and pull her head down to it and tell her if she didn't I'd make
sure her
husband and the sheriff got a look at those photos."
"That was enough. She was cryin' and weepin' and reluctant, but the
idea of
making her do it had me with a hard on that wouldn't quit."
"Finally she opened her mouth and took in the end of my pecker and
started
sucking it ... sucked it pretty good, too, and I felt the sap rising
in me."
"I kept my hands on her head and kept her head bobbing up and down.
I told her
how to do it, told her how to use her tongue."
"I didn't plan on just having that one time in bed with her. I
figured on coming
around a lot."
"She finally decided, I guess, that she should do me and get it over
with. She
started sucking and tonguing with some enthusiasm. Not that she
liked it, but
she found it wasn't as terrible a thing to do as she had thought."
"I shot off a minute later ... right up into her mouth. It was a
hot, sweet
feeling, holding it back, holding it back, while the sensations got
higher and
higher and stronger and stronger ... then I couldn't stop it any
more, and it
shot up out of me."
"Bess knew it was going to happen. She had to know that, but it
surprised her
anyway. She lifted her mouth off."
"I fountained once or twice more and she made a face and spit into
her band. She
got off the bed and went to the bathroom."
"I didn't get dressed. I wanted a cup of coffee, then I wanted her
to suck me
again."
"She made me the coffee, and had a cup herself, but she put up a big
fight about
sucking me again. She had thought once was enough and I'd leave her
alone."
"I made her keep naked, too. She had to walk around in the buff. I
liked to see
her milkers wobble and jiggle and stick out like they did, and see
her walk
around like a queen. Beautiful body. Except for that foot of hers
and that
limp."
"Bess told me never to come back when I left a couple hours later.
But she knew
I'd be back. I told her I'd be back. I was mean. Give a man power
like that over
a handsome woman and he'll abuse her every time. I'm no different.
You'd do it,
too."
"I drove back out to her place five days later. She locked the door
on me but I
forced it open and threatened her with the photos again."
"I asked her if she'd paid a visit to Peter while I was gone. She
said, no, real
cold in her voice. I didn't like that treatment. It got my goat. I
wasn't such a
bad guy. She'd enjoyed bed with me. So I told her to get her clothes
off--I was
going to fist-fuck her."
"She argued and delayed and I had to push her down and practically
do it by
force ... but before long she got excited again and I started
driving my fist
like a piston and she started to shake and jerk with an orgasm."
"She was hugging me at the end, and her hips were moving like a
snake and she
was panting and grunting and squealing ... It made me disgusted in a
way."
"She didn't even seem to mind sucking me off after that. The more
she was
agreeable the more I had a contempt for her."
"Along about my sixth visit she was glad to see me. She even--well,
she even got
so she would suck me off, and when I shot off up into her mouth, she
didn't spit
it. She got so she wouldn't take her mouth away."
"Bess got so she would hug my waist and hips, crouching over me, and
she'd know
I was having an orgasm, and she'd work her mouth really sweet down
on my pecker,
and work her tongue sweet on it, and when I shot off, she kept the
stuff in her
mouth until I was all finished shooting, then she swallowed it all.
I could hear
her throat work when she swallowed it."
"You know, for some reason that disgusted me snore than her getting
fucked by
that donkey. It made my stomach turn over each time."
"I got the belief after some weeks that she was a slut--just a
perverted,
loathsome woman, not worthy of the man who married her. I got so I
wanted to
punish her."
"As long as you're going to wipe this tape clean as soon as you have
the words
on paper, and you change all the names, I guess I'll tell something
I'm not too
proud of ... something I made Bess do."
"Looking back on it now bothers me. I guess it's been bothering me
all my life.
Maybe if I tell it, it'll give me some peace."
"Well, it has to do with her and that Peter, that donkey."
"I was so disgusted with her swallowing my stuff like that ... being
so low as
to do that ... prostitutes, the lowest kind of prostitutes only did
that kind of
thing. That's the way I was taught. That's what I learned when I was
a young
man, back in the '20s and '30s."
"Only low-down scummy prostitutes would swallow spunk and do things
with
animals. In my mind, I guess I thought Bess was that kind. She did
those things,
didn't she?"
"So I--I got her naked one day and I dragged her out to the barn and
I got her
down on her knees under that animal and I told her what I wanted her
to do."
"She went ghost white and started to get up and I hit her, I'm sorry
to say it,
I hit her, I had to hit her, and I said if she didn't I'd send
copies of those
photos to her folks. I had gone through her papers and I had their
address. I
told her I'd send those pictures to her mother and father, and her
husband, the
sheriff ... There wasn't anything she could do but cry. I felt
pretty lowdown
myself, but there was something eating in me, pushing me on, to make
her do it.
She had to be punished, she had to be shown the kind of slut she
was, and that
was the way."
"I squatted down there next to her and I slapped her till she did
it."
"She took hold of that donkey pecker and started to masturbate it.
And I had her
reach over to my pecker and masturbate me, too."
"It wasn't long before Peter was dancin' his hooves on the boards,
getting ready
to shoot."
"That's when I took Bess's head in my hands and forced her
face-to-face with the
end of that pole, and forced her mouth open and forced her to put
her mouth on
the end of it."
"It makes me plain sick now to think what I did to that woman."
"Peter was shovin' his pole in the air, pushin' her head back each
time. His
pecker was too big for her to get even the end of it in her mouth."
"I kept holdin' her head and she kept crying and sobbing, deep down
in her
chest, the kind that tears you apart to hear, and I kept yelling at
her to keep
on jackin' that pecker. Had her use both hands, had her keep her
mouth on the
end of it as best she could ..."
"I'd promised her I'd give her the negatives of the pictures. This
was the last
time, the last thing she had to do."
"Well, that animal finally gushed his stuff. She had her mouth wide
open for it,
too, that first big spurt of it. Went right in like a big pump was
behind it--
right in her mouth."
"Something went and broke in my guts when I saw it--I got a hot wet
feeling and
I was shooting, too. I hardly knew it."
"Bess took that first glop of that stuff full in the mouth and
gagged on it. She
turned her face away and more of it shot out like from a hose and
splashed her
in the hair, and then more came out and splattered on her chin--on
the side of
her chin and ran down her neck--and more came out--not so hard and
more runny--
and it fell on her arm and on her milkers ... down on her legs."
"She was bent over then being sick, vomiting all over, upchucking
everything."
"I had me a prickly feeling up my back. And a cold chill all over.
And like I
was in a dream I said, 'I didn't make it happen.' But I knew better.
I was
feeling sick to my stomach, too. I ran out of the barn and went back
into the
house."
"I got dressed and scamped out of there as fast as I could. I was
shakin'. I
drove home and I burned all those negatives and all the prints."
"I never saw Bess again. I learned her husband got himself killed in
Italy two
months later, and she took the ten thousand insurance money and left
the state.
Sold that donkey named Peter without a qualm."
"I'll bet that animal never had no owner like her again!"
"I was glad to hear she was gone. I wasn't very proud of myself."
"Heard of a farm girl once who was simple-minded. She went around
with her
finger in her twat all the time and liked to masturbate animals. Her
folks
finally had to send her to a state hospital."
"Can't think of anything more that has to do with women and animals
as far as
sex goes."
Chapter 4
The Show Goes On
In these days of wide-open sexual exhibitions--"adult" theaters
showing hard-
core pornographic films, and books available of all sexual
varieties, often
illustrated as graphically as it is possible to get--and even of
live sexual
exhibitions in nightclubs; in these times it is easy to become sated
and tired
of "the same old fucking and sucking," and a desire for variety and
to see even
more "forbidden" sex acts becomes evident in most sophisticates and
consumers of
sex material.
But commercial sex acts involving animals am as old as man. Ebing
recorded the
following: "A monstrous example of this moral depravity in large
cities is
related by Maschka (Handb., iii.); it is the case of a Parisian
female who
showed herself in a sexual act with a trained bulldog, to a secret
circle of
roues, at, ten francs a head."
And John Trimble has this to add: "Actually, of course, there is
usually a
difference in these paid performances, in that the female is doing
it for money
only, and not for pleasure. But this is far from always being the
situation. Few
people will do something they absolutely abhor JUST for money. And
one of the
most interesting case histories I have compiled for this work
[Female
Bestiality] concerns a beautiful young prostitute who enjoys being
cunnilingued
and coited with by a dog as well as gaining pleasure from being
watched in this
performance. To her, it is not all an act, but something to which
she genuinely
looks forward."
Trimble's example fits my experience as I relate it below.
A friend called me on the phone and told me about a discreet little
place where
a girl-dog act was playing, and invited me to come along that night
with him and
his wife.
I accepted and we arrived at the place about nine o'clock that
night--at a
private home.
At the door I was asked to submit to a search and to swear in
writing that I was
not a police officer or informant, and that I wished to see a sexual
exhibition
of an unusual kind, that I was there of my own free will and would
not report
what I had seen to any law-enforcement agency.
(This event occurred some months ago. The house is now
empty--unrented--and I
have no idea where the people have gone. I hope my reporting of the
affair in
this book does not constitute a violation of that signed statement.
In any
event, I never knew their names.)
The physical search was done on the men by a man who let us in and
took our
money. The woman in our group was searched by a small, thin young
woman in a red
wig who wore sunglasses.
I almost always carry around my zip-ease and in it I always have a
copy or two
of one of my books. My credentials. And, like as not, I'll also have
along my
cassette tape-recorder/player.
The man insisted on looking into my case, of course, and I explained
who I was
and what I wrote ...
He didn't look interested. It was clear that he didn't want anybody
getting in
with a camera.
All of us did so swear and sign. We then each paid $20.00 for
entrance.
The house was large and old, with a big, square living room. At one
end were a
pair of wide sliding doors leading to a parlor or dining room. The
doors were
closed.
Sofas and chairs were arranged facing these doors. There were about
twenty
people already seated, waiting. There were only three other women
present.
There was very little conversation. Most of the people appeared ill
at ease.
Fifteen minutes passed, and a few more men entered and filled the
remaining
empty places.
At about nine-thirty the lights were turned off and we sat in
darkness for a
moment. We could see a line of amber light under and between the
closed sliding
doors that we all faced.
Then the doors were rumbled open from the other side. We saw a
blanket-covered
king-size mattress on a roughly carpentered unpainted wooden
platform. Yellow
light poured down on the mattress from spotlights hidden high and to
the left
and right inside the wide doorway.
We saw no one. The room appeared to be empty.
Then a hidden phonograph or tape player came on--playing
Scheherezade. The
quality was thin and low fidelity.
A door in the back of the other room opened and a slim girl stepped
into sight.
She was short, with an obvious blonde wig, and in addition wore a
black mask
over her eyes and nose. She was the girl in the red wig who had
searched the
females in the audience.
She wasn't naked. She wore a striptease gown of shimmering blue that
had
obviously seen better days. It seemed too big for her and I got the
impression
it was a castoff.
She stepped up onto the mattress and began an amateur striptease.
Some of the people grumbled out loud: "Bring on the dogs!" "Twenty
bucks for
this?"
The girl kept on stripping. After a few more minutes she was naked,
doing some
effective bumps and grinds. She had a sinuous, erotic movement to
her hips which
was very sensual and which I thought showed professional training.
Her belly was
flat and in its flexing showed good condition and taut muscles.
Her breasts were exceptionally well-formed, conical, firm, buoyant,
with small
pink nipples erect with the stimulation caused by her movements.
She was not a natural blonde--if her wig was intended to indicate
her true hair
color--because her pubic hair was thin and narrowly grown on her
mound, and a
rich brown in color.
The lips of her vulva were easily seen. In fact, they were garishly
visible
because of having been outlined by a vividly red lipstick.
She didn't speak.
When Scheherezade ended she paused until someone out of our sight
changed a
record to a slow, rhythmic drumbeat.
She snapped her fingers. The far door opened and two fully grown
Great Danes
came into the room. One was golden yellow in color with erratic
black stripes in
his coat. He wore a wide blue collar with big blue glass "jewels".
The other was brown-black with white stripes on his chest. He wore a
matching
collar but colored red, with red "jewels".
They were magnificent dogs; alert, heads held high, disciplined.
Their ears
twitched and they smelled the audience, but they kept their eyes on
the girl,
their mistress. They were very clean and well groomed; their coats
shone.
She gestured and they leaped up onto the covered mattress and came
to a perfect
"heel" position, one on either side of her. Their backs were on a
level with her
crotch.
Some of the audience clapped lightly.
Whoever was at the phonograph or tape player turned up the sound;
the drumbeat
became insistent and all-pervading. The brilliant yellow light
poured down on
the girl and her dogs.
She turned to face the golden yellow Dane. She stroked his head a
few seconds,
then put her hands on her naked hips and spread her feet about
two-and-a-half
feet apart.
It was a signal. The Dane before her sat on his haunches and
extended his head
forward and began licking at her vulva.
Those who could see it clearly stirred with excitement. The other
Dane began
lapping at her crotch from behind. His long tongue wet the cheeks of
her small,
round buttocks. He licked between. He pressed his nose up against
the soft crack
and seemed to be trying to reach the long slobbering tongue of the
other Dane.
The girl had thrown her head back. She stood with her hands still on
her hips,
legs wide. She breathed irregularly.
The Dane at her front was licking her eagerly, obviously enjoying
it. The inner
surfaces of her upper thighs were wet from his tongue, as was her
thin brown
pubic hair. His tongue curled out continuously to delve between her
thighs.
From where I sat I could see the lipsticked edges of her vulva. Her
stance
tended to pull the lips apart. The dog's tongue often lapped into
the opening.
When that happened she visibly trembled.
After a few moments her hips began to rock and her belly rippled.
She appeared,
for short periods, to be fucking the dog's tongue.
I saw that tongue go into her vulva with increasing frequency. I
think it may
even have speared into her vagina once or twice.
Both dogs were becoming more excited. They sniffed loudly and
pressed their
muzzles more enthusiastically into her crotch from in front and
behind.
The girl gestured and the dogs stopped. She was breathing fast. She
licked her
lips. She dropped to her knees and murmured to the animals. She sat
on her
heels.
On her knees she was smaller than either of the Danes. The big dogs
stood still
but were nervous and anxious. Their tails whipped back and forth.
Their jaws
opened and their tongues lolled and they grinned.
She reached under each dog with each hand and gently stroked their
bellies with
her palms. Her hands cupped their furry white sheaths.
Each Dane seemed to prance excitedly in position. Each dog's penis
emerged--long
and pink.
She played with their penises. She was gentle. She moved forward on
hands and
knees. She spoke to the brown-black Dane.
He jumped up on her from behind. His fore-legs and paws rested on
her shoulders.
He was huge compared to her. She looked small and fragile and pink
and white,
naked and vulnerable compared to the big dog covering her.
He began poking at her crotch. His penis was all the way out--a long
thing, like
a pink-mauve hose.
She patted the blanket in front of her and the other Dane trotted in
a circle,
and finally came to stand sideways to her head.
He stood patiently, at attention, waiting, watching the other Dane
searching for
an entrance to her body,
The girl was bearing a lot of weight--the dog resting most of his
weight on her
back had to weigh something around one hundred and fifty pounds.
She reached under, through her crotch, and formed her palm into a
channel to
guide the dog's penis to her vagina. The touch of her hand spurred
him to a
closer contact with her loins, and a quicker series of jabs.
Suddenly he was into her. She winced at the spasmodic, deep
penetration.
The Dane gave a yipping, delighted bark and gripped her shoulders
with his front
paws in an almost human way, and curved in back and loins in
constant, pounding
motion. He fucked her hard and fast.
Under him, the girl was braced on all fours. She had her head down.
Her body
shook with his plunges. Her eyes were half-closed. Her mouth was
open.
I noticed that the people in the audience were sitting forward,
craning for a
better angle.
The dog tired after a minute. She said a word to him. He jumped down
off her
back, pulling out of her. His penis was easily six inches long, wet
and
slippery-looking.
She said another word or two and the Dane which had been standing
patiently by
her head circled around and hopped up on her in the other dog's
place. His penis
slid out as if on command. He waited, in place, for her to reach
under and guide
him in.
She took him more easily. Her breathing was faster and it seemed to
me she was
beginning to enjoy the sheer physical sensations of the very fast
fucking she
was getting.
She did not, ever, look at the audience. We were only about seven to
eight feet
away at the closest.
The second dog lasted another few minutes. Then he hopped down and
the first dog
got on her again. She took him in. The other dog stood by her head
once again,
his penis hanging out, jerking slightly.
She had her eyes closed. Her face twitched and the artery in the
side of her
neck was throbbing heavily. Her hands were clutching the blanket
tightly.
She began breathing hoarsely when the second Great Dane took his
turn again. She
lurched under his weight. She began to moan ... and it sounded real.
There were a few in the audience who were breathing almost as loudly
as she.
It was during the first dog's third mounting of her that she
appeared to have an
orgasm.
She was shaking under him. She gritted her teeth as he fucked her
fast,
continually so fast and hard, pounding his penis into her from
behind, getting
his hairy sheath in there, too, between the lips of her vulva.
Her face looked strained, intense. Then she began panting, sucking
for air and
more air. She cried out, "OH-OH-OH-OH ..." and her face twisted in
an expression
of pure agony, but it was agony of pleasure, not pain.
The dog plunged into her excitedly. He smelled her coming and her
supreme
excitement and he barked loudly as he fucked her.
The other dog stood by her head, still disciplined, obeying.
As soon as her pleasure subsided she stunned everyone in the
audience by leaning
forward a little and dipping her head under that dog's belly.
His penis was still hanging out. She turned her head and opened her
mouth and
started sucking him. She sucked him as if she liked doing it. And
the first dog
was still fucking her, hanging onto her, drilling her.
It was astounding and disgusting. If her getting fucked by the dogs
until she
had an orgasm was a turn-on for most of the audience, her sucking
one of the
dogs was a turn-off for most.
One of the women was sick to her stomach. She stumbled out of the
room with her
companion.
The dog she was sucking stood rigidly still, but his legs seemed to
tremble. He
kept turning his head to look at her.
She sucked him for several minutes. She was obviously willing to
suck him to
ejaculation. One of the customers said, "Let's see him shoot that
jizz!"
The dog who was fucking her got tired and hopped off. He circled
around and sat
down to watch.
The dog trembled more. His hind quarters gave small coital thrusts.
He couldn't
control himself. The girl knelt to a more comfortable position on
her left side
and elbow. She reached up with her right hand and patted his left
flank. She
worked her mouth on his penis.
The dog could not restrain his instincts. The intense pleasure was
overriding
his training. He began fucking her mouth more and more violently.
His pink hose
went far into her mouth. He couldn't control the depth. He didn't
care.
She gagged and then put her free hand in front of her mouth, curled
into a
tunnel, to prevent him from plunging all of his six or more inches,
plus the
hairy base, into her clinging mouth.
The Dane fucked furiously, panting and heaving. Her head was jostled
by his
thrusts against her hand.
Suddenly she pulled her head aside. We saw the dog shoot plumes of
white stuff
in an arc to the blanket. She kept her hand on his penis, and
finished him by
hand. He whimpered as he spurted.
The other Dane jumped into position. He was eager--his penis was
erect--and he
sniffed the girl's crotch. She petted the first dog and told him to
"sit."
He obeyed.
She turned to the second, waiting dog. Immediately, without
hesitation, she
dipped her head under his belly and clasped her lips over the end of
his taut
penis.
This dog was less well-trained, or more eager. He began
mouth-fucking her
immediately. Again, she used her hand to prevent too deep
penetration. She
sucked wetly.
She wasn't quick enough this time--she obviously took a spurt of his
semen into
her mouth. She flung her head aside and spat it out into her palm as
the dog
shot his stuff without benefit of her hand stroking him.
Abruptly the dining room doors rumbled closed and lights came on in
the living
room. It was time to go; the show was over.
I wanted to try to interview the girl. On impulse I knocked on the
closed doors.
After a few seconds they parted a few inches. The man looked out. I
told him
what I wanted. He said to wait a minute.
He came back and asked if I'd pay anything. I said no. He went away
again, and
returned to say I could have a few minutes if I didn't get too nosy.
While my friends agreed to wait outside in the car, I was taken in
across the
blanket-covered mattress to a back bedroom.
The girl was sitting cross-legged on an old club chair, wearing a
blue shift,
still with her wig and mask on. She was spooning chocolate ice cream
from a
white cereal bowl.
It was agreed no names would be used. She was sometimes
breathtakingly honest.
The man stayed in the room with us and occasionally vetoed a
question. THE
INTERVIEW:
Geis: I keep asking myself why you do an act like this. Is it
strictly for
money, or do you enjoy it?
Girl: For money. It's gotta be for money.
Geis: But it looked like you had an orgasm during the act. Did you?
Girl: I can't help that. I mean, sure, sometimes. But that isn't why
I do it.
Geis: The dogs are beautiful animals and excellently trained. Did
you train them
yourself?
Girl: Well, yeah, sure. From puppies almost. We planned this--"
Man: Don't talk about that. Shut up about us.
Geis: Let me ask ... I'll try ... In the detail of the act, where
you take the
dogs' penises in your mouth ... the question is ... do they taste
any different
from a man?
Girl: The come tastes like rotten caviar or something like that.
It's evil.
Geis: How did you start doing this?
Man: No.
Geis: Well, could you tell how or why you first let a dog have
intercourse with
you?
Girl: He was a pet and I was just a stupid kid. I was just fooling
around with
him. It tickled.
Geis: How many times have you done this?
Girl: This act? About--
Man: Don't tell him.
Geis: Well ... Have you ever done it with other animals--besides
dogs?
Girl: No, just dogs. I like dogs.
Geis: Is that ice cream to get the taste of semen out of your mouth?
Girl: Yeah. I can never tell exactly when it's going to shoot.
Geis: Do you think a trained dog such as your Danes makes a better
lover than a
man?
Girl: Some ways. Beelz--well, the one who finished me tonight, he'll
get me off
almost every time, if I start with him. There's just something about
him that
does it to me. I don't know why. And sometimes you'd swear they
could talk with
their eyes ...
Geis: Do you have trouble making it with a man?
Girl: Yeah, I really do. I give up trying, mostly. I get too tense
or something.
I can't relax right.
Geis: Do you get a better, stronger orgasm from having a big dog ...
well, fuck
you ... than from a man?
Girl: I don't know. When I make it the first time from screwing a
guy I'll let
you know.
Geis: Have you had any kind of orgasm at all from a man?
Girl: If they go down on me, I come. That's the only way. And it
takes too long.
They don't like to do it that long.
Geis: Do you come quickly when your dogs lick you?
Girl: Um-hmm. Their tongues are different. They send all kinds of
shivers
through me. It gets so strong I can't stand it.
Geis: So a man isn't much use to you.
Girl: Not for sex.
Geis: Ever try making it with a woman?
Girl: Once. I didn't dig it I only let her go ahead because I was
curious. It
was nothing--no feeling, no matter what she did.
Geis: Are the dogs ready to go every day? Do you get more than one
performance
out of them a day?
Man: That's enough. That's it. We've got things to do. Turn that
thing off.
And that was the end of the interview. It was just enough to show
that the girl
is deeply disturbed. She has a king-size psychosexual hangup. It
probably
started in childhood, not with her first dog, but in her
relationship with her
parents.
It is tempting to speculate that her parents rejected her and denied
her love
and a place in their lives. She was left feeling inferior, not
worthy of human
love and status. She found that dogs loved her and accepted her.
Men--other
people--she could not trust, could not give herself to them. So she
values
herself--as a reject--lower than human, deserving to be in the dregs
of life,
fit only for degrading sex shows with her dogs ... because she was
convinced as
a child she wasn't good enough to be loved by her parents. That
meant there had
to be something wrong with her, didn't it?
That's how a child reasons. He takes his values and value from the
most
important people in the world. He knows no others during those first
critical
years of life.
As I say--it is tempting to speculate that this was what happened to
this girl.
But we'll probably never know.
Chapter 5
A Pony for Two
The following interview tells a tragic story. I have had it in my
files for two
years awaiting the accumulation of enough similar material to make
up a book.
As is so often the case, I was guided to the woman by a "bird dog"
friend who
had met her and gleaned the substance of her story.
We'll call her Louisa. She was an alcoholic. Was. I learned a few
weeks ago that
she had died of poisoning--she drank (probably) something that may
have looked
and smelled alcoholic, but wasn't.
Louisa, as I knew her, didn't care. She was trying to kill herself
by drinking.
She was trying to atone for a horrible (to her) sin which her strict
conscience
would not permit to go unpunished.
She was forty years old when I taped this interview with her. We met
in a lower-
class bar, talked in a booth for an hour, and arranged for a meeting
at her
room. It was agreed that I would bring along a fifth of vodka to
"further the
cause".
There were six taping sessions, each about an hour long, each paid
for with a
bottle. Her mind was rotting away in a swamp of alcohol-destroyed
brain cells.
She repeated herself too often. She was antagonistic, suddenly
erotic, suddenly
in tears, suddenly calm, suddenly shaking in an agony of remorse as
we dredged
through that critical, terrible period in her life that was killing
her.
But Louisa was able to speak with a kind of power that originated in
her
emotional agony and in her native talent. She had been to a small
religious
college and was interested in poetry. She told me she used to read
great
quantities of books. She even tried writing religious poetry.
Her husband was an electrical engineer and small contractor. He
often had to be
away on jobs for weeks at a time.
Listening to her and seeing her, during the taping sessions, when
she literally
ripped open her soul, was often almost physically painful. I often
left her room
shaken.
She was, in every sense of the word, tormented. She spoke with a
fierceness and
intensity that was sometimes frightening. Most of the time her eyes
were dull,
but once in a while they were like coals from that hell she was so
eager to go
to.
The question will automatically come to mind as you read this
transcription: Why
did this woman's daughter cross the line to lesbianism and into
bestiality. And
why did the mother follow?
A December, 1968, article in Newsweek suggests part of the answer:
"Stanford
psychologist Philip Zimbardo found that women patients in mental
hospitals are
much more likely to swear than men. The psychological controls we
put on women
are so tight,' he says, 'that when they break through they really
let go.'"
Now listen to Alfred Ellison in his Sex Between Humans and Animals:
"An
individual whose natural sexual urge has been severely stunted by
early parental
or religious conditioning, may, following a first accidental
contact, turn to
the practice of bestiality as a secret outlet for sexual desires and
energies
which have long been deprived of any other outlet. And in the final
analysis, it
is perhaps within this latter factor--severe repressive moral
training--that one
may find the real seeds of not only bestiality, but indeed of all
so-called
abnormal sex behavior."
In the case of Louisa and Barby it is obvious that tremendous
forces, bottled up
too long, burst through the most rigid anti-sexual dogma possible.
Louisa's
deep, puritanical religious attitudes and her personal revulsion to
sex with her
husband were responsible for her daughter's "sexual psychosis" and
for her own
helpless fall into that extreme orgiastic and above all masochistic
sexual
reaction.
My interviews with Louisa follow.
The transcript of those tapes is over a hundred thousand words. It
is a shambles
to read.
I have edited it, cut it, rearranged it, and written, some
transitional
material. Where possible I have taken out my questioning--and let
her answers
and erratic monologue tell the story. Bear in mind that she was
always drunk
during the tapings.
How It Started
"My Barby was a nice clean girl. I brought her up to be a nice girl.
But
something got into her when she turned sixteen' that awful winter on
the farm
when we were ... we were all alone for almost four months. The snow
was
terrible."
"No man can know the dreadful pleasures a woman can know. The
terrible lusts we
are liable to!"
"I spent days of hours in bed with my daughter, swooning in filthy
rapture as
she did things to me ... horribly shameful things ... with her hands
and with
her mouth and with ... with things ... and in the other room, in my
room, with
that animal ... with that animal!"
"And I did things to her, too, to satisfy her lusts, to repay her
... to make
life better for her in her sickness. We lied! We lied to each other
and to
ourselves ..."
"The Devil arranged it. I know that now. He took my husband away to
work for the
winter in another state and brought the blizzards and made her sick
... and
seduced us."
"She was so healthy. A healthy baby, a healthy child ... never ill
... never a
hint of the perverted lusts that seized her."
"She was sixteen and we couldn't get into town to do anything, we
couldn't have
a party for her with her friends from around."
"She got that awful cough that terrible wet cough and the doctor
said she
couldn't go to school at all, probably until spring when it warmed
up. She had
to stay in bed so much."
"We didn't sleep in the same room at first. I trusted her at first.
But I caught
her doing things to herself. Dirty things between her legs."
"I heard her one night. It was terribly cold and the snow was almost
to the roof
on the wind side. I'll never live in snow country again! I'll never
live north
again!"
"I heard her moaning soft and quiet, muffled--like she was hiding
it. I thought
she was getting sicker. I thought she was having pain. But I'd never
heard her
make sounds like that before. I went to the door to her room and
stood there in
the bitter cold and listened."
"No, the sounds--like she was breathing hard and was trying to keep
the moans
inside herself. So I wouldn't hear."
"And I heard the bed creaking, too. That regular creaking is what
made me think.
She had to be moving up and down regular on that bed to make
it--sound like
that."
That was a dirty, sex kind of creaking. I know sex sounds in the
night--and that
moaning, and that breathing fast."
"I know it from my own life, with my own husband when he forced
himself on me.
Putting his big dirty thing in me. I hated him doing that."
"Yes, but it was different with my Barby. I was doing it for her
sake, not mine.
Sometimes it made my skin crawl to do the things we did together and
with
Diablo."
"I didn't know what Diablo meant--it was Spanish and I didn't know
any Spanish--
Diablo was just a word she thought up to name him. But it means
'devil' and he
was; he was possessed by the Devil to do the things he did to us.
The Devil took
that pony over and seduced us! I know that to be true. It wouldn't
have happened
but the Devil got into Barby and that animal and he even got into
me. With his
whispering at night in my bed, with his burning and lusting in my
body."
"No, no, I resisted. I resisted till I was biting my cheeks and
rubbing snow on
my naked body. I even filled myself down there with snow--icy snow,
but the
burning wouldn't go away."
"He seduced me through her--through my own daughter and through that
terrible
animal he possessed! I resisted but he beat me down, slimy and
cunning; he
slipped into me with a desire to help her, to soothe her burning,
and he used my
own mother love!"
"I think I beat him. I won. I'm winning. He's still in me. Once the
Devil gets
in you he never leaves. He's always whispering. And once he gets you
to do
horrible things to yourself that give you that feeling--that
feeling--then
you're never free. He makes your body want that feeling again and
again, more
and more, until you are a slave to it. Filthy, sensual, lascivious
rolling and
grunting in the vise of the body's lusts."
"The first night ... yes, when I heard Barby in her bed, doing that
to herself I
knew what she was doing. I stood listening and I knew. I closed my
eyes and I
could see through the door, right through the blankets to her body
and I could
see her fingers going in and out, in and out, in and out, to make
the burning
more powerful and stronger, until the wave of it comes into you like
a moving
mountain and takes your breath away and makes you go out of your
mind."
"I felt sick. I opened her door and the sound stopped. Like a knife
had cut it
off clean as a whistle. She stopped. She was holding her breath."
"I went in and got into bed with her. It was too cold to sit out in
the air. I
had to talk to her. I had to make her understand."
"Barby confessed to me. She pressed herself--her hot young body
pressed against
me--and she was trembling with what the Devil was doing in her."
"She cried against me ... We huddled under the blankets and her hot
body ... her
flesh was so heated by her lust ... her hot body burned against me,
It was--our
nightgowns were nothing--and her lust came over to my body. The
Devil crept
through to me then ... that moment when her breasts were uncovered
by her
turning and twisting and she pressed them innocently against me."
"Barby--yes, Barby ... Barby had large, well-shaped breasts. She was
a big,
healthy, vital girl at the start of that winter, until the cold and
that
terrible cough took her. She wasted away, she burned away with the
fever and
that lust ... that dirty lust that ... that made her blue eyes
bright and
glittering. It was the Devil looking out of her eyes."
"But it seemed ... I remember, how gaunt she became, but her breasts
were still
big and sleek and full. And she always had energy for satisfying her
lusts. Her
woman's parts were always hot to the touch. She was always eager to
do things.
She was always slippery to the touch between her legs."
"She was possessed, and she possessed me. She made me do horrible
things! I
didn't resist. I couldn't resist. My faith was weak!"
"She wept in my arms and told me how she had to satisfy herself. The
center of
her, the core of her body was driving her crazy. She clutched me so
tightly and
begged me to tell her how to stop her from wanting."
"She whispered what she dreamed. She dreamed of men--of the private
parts--of
men that attacked her. Big men, big in every place ... big with need
for her. In
her dreams they penetrated her. They were like animals--driving into
her, always
driving, plunging their ... their big stiff things into her."
"I held her in my arms and listened and tried to calm her, but the
fever--the
lust fever--was in her. I knew I had stopped her too soon. She was
burning."
"Some of her fever came into me. I had had dreams like hers long
ago, when I was
a girl, and I had done things to myself, but I had been able to
resist after a
while."
"Barby was alone in the house with me, for long cough-ravaged weeks,
in that
bed, left alone to do things with Devil-guided hands."
"She rubbed against me unknowing, innocently at first. She rubbed
her firm young
breasts against my own. I am--I was--look at my sagging front
now--see my fat
belly beer-belly--but then, that winter, I was like her, only older,
I was big
in the chest, too. I gave her my body."
"The fire, the slow fire came into my breasts, from the slow,
innocent rubbing
of her breasts. My flesh glowed and I felt my teats stiffen and burn
for more."
"The evil thoughts came--the ways to give in and not know it, the
sly, dirty,
pretending schemes to fool yourself ... at first. But the time comes
when you
cannot pretend. When you are panting like a winded horse with your
legs spread
and your child's hot mouth is on you and her Devil's tongue is
entering you and
driving you to time after time after time of that wild, hot pleasure
that cannot
end and you know will continue as long as you can stand it!"
"I schemed to myself without knowing, then. I told myself I had to
let her have
the dirty satisfaction she needed to be calm. I told my daughter to
go ahead and
do it to herself, just to soothe herself ... one last time."
"But she was too embarrassed to do it with me in the bed, holding
her. She was
so ashamed and tortured. She could not do it. And so I sacrificed
myself. I did
it for her. I put my mother's knowing hand down there under her
nightie ... down
there in the hot, wet, center of her body, in that damp furnace
between her
thighs, and I put my finger into her and I found the organ that
needed touching,
and it was like mine ... my little tongue of flesh that stiffened
sometimes with
heat and lust ... I knew how to touch hers."
"Barby oh, my Barby--what did we do? WHY? We gave in, we gave in so
easily! Your
lust kindled mine and we burned, we burned till we were ashes we
burned and we
slipped into hell!"
"She's there now--in hell--burning and screaming in pain, paying for
her sins.
And I'll be with her soon. I'll die soon and join her. The pain will
be good.
The agony will be good. I deserve everything. I should have saved my
child ...
and I paved the way ... I let her do the degraded things we did and
I let her
bring that animal into the house--and I let her experiment with him
and I joined
her--and I took it into me--ahhh ... the size of it ... and the
hellish pleasure
..."
"We were witches--we didn't know it--we were worshipping the Devil
and we didn't
know it. Not the goat--but the hoofed beast! He came to us
cunningly, and
possessed us. The monster entered us. The monster killed
her--BARBY--raped her--
ripped her insides--up--up--up into her--SCREAMING--OH GOD THE
BLOOD! I can't--
I--I, no--go away ... go away ... leave me alone ... you jackal, you
leech, you
parasite ... I don't want your drink ... I want to die ..."
(But she called me when she needed a bottle and continued the
story.)
"My child clutched me as I gave her that pleasure that first time,
in her bed,
with the heavy covers over us, over our heads, with cold slivers of
air
sometimes stabbing into our warm nest."
"She whispered my name and cried on my shoulder. But she opened her
legs for my
hand ... and she moved so the bed started creaking again ... she
moved against
my hand and tried to drive my fingers into her as she did to
herself."
"I let her do it. I held my hand stiff and let her use it as if it
were a man's
thing."
"It shocked me and I wished she didn't do it that way, but I said
nothing. I
wanted her to have the pleasure and be released and calm and
soothed."
"I told myself she had a woman's body, but she had been a child, a
baby, such a
little time before. She was only sixteen and she was pressing
herself onto my
fingers as if possessed! Moaning again. Disgustingly wet there.
Sticky and hot.
Inside she was large ... it surprised me ... and she wanted a man.
She needed a
big man. Her dreams were showing her. That knowledge made my throat
tight and I
thought we would have to get her married soon. Some girls are not
made for
waiting. I thought she was ready for carrying babies."
"And so I let her use my fingers ... I heard her whisper in her
lust, maybe not
realizing she was speaking aloud, whispering for more ... so I did
for her with
three ... three fingers."
"This is what you want, isn't it? This awful, lascivious detail,
isn't it? The
filthy things we did, everything, everything ... So your
dirty-minded readers
can enjoy--can enjoy the terrible things ..."
"No, you're right, you're so right. It doesn't matter. Maybe there's
a lesson
for somebody in what happened to us. God forgive me, I hope so!"
"Barby clutched me so hard when she, when she reached her time--the
pleasure. It
surprised me. It shocked me how intensely she felt it. She was so
frantic and so
greedy for it. It frightened me her greed for that kind of pleasure
... that
terrible response and that need. It wasn't decent. No woman should
lust to that
extent. No decent woman. No girl should have a devil in her for
physical
satisfaction--like that!"
"Barby was out of her mind with lust in that moment. She touched me
... me ...
she started to do it to me ... she put her hand between my legs and
her fingers
pushed into me there."
"YES--I was that way--I was eager, my body was ready for a touch.
And for a few
seconds she mauled my organs and rubbed me inside and out in that
shameful
welter that the body provides."
"I was overwhelmed for a time. I was mad for it, too. My legs
opened, too. I
moaned, too."
"But Barby stopped when she came to her right mind. She snatched her
hand away
from me and wept like a child and sobbed for me to forgive her."
"I did. I patted her and soothed her and finally left her to return
to my bed,
but then I was still afire."
"I burned in my lonely bed and had evil thoughts of lust for my
husband ... not
only him. I brought up my memory of boys from my youth ... the one
boy who had
been bold and selfish with me. He had mauled me openly during a
picnic and
forced my hand to his pants to feel him there--a terrifying
hardness. He even
opened his pants and showed it to me. I was like a rabbit hypnotized
by a
snake--it poked up so white and long, with its red cap on top."
"He made me touch it--it was hot with blood and alive somehow ...
alive in my
fingers like a bird wanting freedom."
"I put my hand on my privates in my bed and gave myself up to
sensuous thoughts
and fantasies. I satisfied myself as quickly as I could, taking care
not to
shake the bed. I rubbed the little, stiff bit of flesh that is so
pleasurably
sensitive for a woman."
"When it was over I promised God I would never do it again, and
would keep Barby
from abusing herself likewise again."
"But that poor girl--possessed--the next day! The next day when I
was out in the
barn, feeding that loathsome animal--that pony that became our ...
our lover! I
had a premonition ... a flash of inner knowledge that she was at
herself again.
I could see her in her bed--doing it--working her fingers into
herself, gasping
and panting in her madness, jerking her body in violent spasms ..."
"I had been out of the house for a half an hour at least. I had to
find out. I
prayed I was wrong. I crept back to the house and was silent as sin
as I went
inside."
"My heart sank--I heard her, louder than before, thrashing in her
bed."
"I went to her door and eased it open an inch, to see. Dear
God--what she was
doing to herself! My blood went cold, then prickly darts went up and
down my
spine."
"She was lying on her bed, the bedclothes kicked aside--it was warm,
even hot,
in the room because the doctor wanted her to sweat, to keep warm, so
I always
kept the oil furnace set high for her room during the day. She had
rucked up her
nightie, to her waist, and her nakedness was obscenely revealed, so
stark in the
cold white light from the window, and her legs were flung wide and
her heels
were dug into the mattress and she was hunched over and her right
hand was
working something in and out of herself. Not her finger--something
terribly long
and round and thick."
"I screamed, and she--her head turned like lightning to me and she
had that
wild-eyed look--that shameless glare in her eyes for an instant.
Then she flung
herself flat on her stomach on the bed and the thing she had been
using was
shown me clutched in her hand."
"It was a dried ear of corn. She must have gotten it from the
silo--God knows
when--and in her warped need, in her tormented mind, she had
conceived the idea
of using it for that filthy purpose."
"I flew across the room and seized it from her hand. For one awful
moment I
inspected it--she had trimmed it on the end and made it smooth. And
she had
taken one of her father's rubber things I insisted he use when he
needed to do
his dirty business with me--one of those skin things--and she had
rolled it onto
that ear of corn ... and had used it on herself It was slimy wet
from her body."
"My heart was pounding like thunder in my ears. Barby lay there
crying. I threw
that thing from me to the floor."
"I hit her. I beat her. She howled and wept and I kept hitting her
until my arms
were tired."
"And then I was empty. I was drained of all rage and shock."
"I crept onto the bed and held her again and tried to understand her
and to know
why she had behaved--why she had done that to herself."
"She sobbed against me and said she was always ticklish with lust.
She needed it
... she needed relief ... she had to do it ... it drove her crazy if
she didn't
..."
"I didn't know how to answer her. It was Devil talk but I couldn't
counter it.
She had arguments that baffled me. I tried this and she countered me
with that;
I tried another way and she turned it back upon me ... my own words,
to make it
seem right that she do things to herself."
"She kept after me, begging me: 'Let me have it back, mother,
Please, please,
please. I need it.' I should have thrown it away, into the garbage,
out into the
snow as far as I could throw it ... or I should have burned it, that
Devil's
implement! The device of Satan!"
"But she kept arguing and pleading. She writhed and howled and kept
using her
hands every moment that I wasn't with her. She broke the cord when I
tied her
hands away from her body. She was supernaturally strong!"
"She seduced me with her telling how good it felt to use the thing.
How
satisfying it was to her, how it filled her aching body with joy and
glory."
"I could not defeat her. In my deepest heart of hearts--I did not
want to deny
her. I see now, I know now--I wanted it, too. I wanted to use that
terrible,
big, imitation man thing on myself."
"How one terrible thing led to another. How easy it became. One
perversion
became right and so another degenerate practice became permissible,
and another,
and another, until ... until ..."
"I resisted her for three days. I prayed day and night for her and
for myself. I
asked for a sign, for a sign ... to prove to me I was right."
"But the Devil prevailed. HE created a sign in the sky that brought
a cry of joy
and triumph from Barby. She called me to look ... and there was a
cloud
obscenely shaped in the form of a man's organ, sailing overhead,
shaped so
perfectly ... so detailed ... that it brought a blush to my face."
"I could not fight after that. I believed somehow what Barby wanted
was what she
needed to become well."
"I gave in. I took the thing from the drawer and I washed it and I
placed it in
her hands."
"I had seen the Sign. They said in the hospital where they sent me
after I went
crazy after Barby died, they said the cloud was a hallucination--we
imagined it.
No. No. It was there, floating white and perfectly formed. We saw
it.
"The doctor--the psychiatrist--said we were both extremely neurotic
that winter
and that her long illness and our being snowed in so long ... I
forgot all he
said."
"That doctor wanted me to think that putting down the flesh and
exalting the
spirit is bad. He told me that splitting the body off from the mind
was wrong.
But they are separate! There must be mind over matter--spirit over
flesh--or we
are nothing but animals! That is what makes us God-like. That is
what raises us
above the beasts."
"He said the body and the mind were one I He said science and
psychology show
that we cannot deny our sexual nature. He said to keep down lust too
far only
resulted in its coming up stronger than ever, and coming up twisted.
He said sex
was a basic need. Like eating. But for thousands of years we have
known that we
must be pure! For thousands of years we have been uplifted by
denying the
fleshly desires."
"He said Barby went insane trying to be impossibly pure of mind and
body. He
said I had taught her to be too good and too clean."
"But it was only weakness. We were imperfect vessels for God's love.
We let the
Devil enter us."
"The doctors and scientists don't believe anymore. They're all so
sure of
themselves. They think they are all-powerful. But they still die.
They all still
die. Then they find out."
"YOU'LL FIND OUT!"
"I'll tell you, yes, everything you want. It can't hurt Barby. It
can't hurt
me."
"Did I tell you my husband cast me away? He put me aside. I get
money from him
now, but he does not want me. I do not want me, either."
"I don't know! How big it was? It was an ear of corn a big ear of
corn ... yes,
thick and long. At least--yes, like that. We never measured it.
That's
disgusting. Only a man would want to know the inches ..."
(At this point Louisa went into a kind of drunken trance. Her voice
became
intense and low and she seemed to forget I was present. She seemed
to be
speaking aloud to herself, and to be reliving in her mind what she
described.
She twisted and tensed in her chair. Her fingers intertwined in her
lap and
remained locked tight. Her eyes were vague and unfocused.)
"She took it--there in the living room in broad daylight--and was
shameless. She
took off all her clothes. She stood naked and she fondled herself.
She wanted me
to touch her. She wanted me to use it on her.
"But I couldn't. Later ... later I did. But then I could only sit
and watch my
child abuse her body with that thing."
"She stood by the heater and rubbed it over her breasts and teats.
It was
covered by that thin rubber skin, but the hard, dry kernels of corn
made it
bumpy and like a cobblestone surface."
"Barby was flushed and crazy-eyed. She rubbed that thing between her
legs and
then bent over slightly and put the end of it in her."
"It was horrible to watch her face as she twisted and turned it and
pulled it up
into herself. I was shaking as I watched."
"She pushed and pulled and got almost all of it up into herself. It
came out wet
and slippery. She sat on the rug and did it faster and faster. She
made those
sounds of pleasure. She forgot I was there at all. She squished it
in and out of
herself, so far in that she held only a bit of the thick end. She
used one hand
and then the other, then both hands. On and on and on."
"She was like an animal, sweating and grunting, that thing making
awful wet
sounds, and with her face not the face of my pure little Barby ... a
different
creature I didn't recognize."
"She reached her pleasure. She was breathing so fast and so
hard--her legs were
thrashing, and she rolled onto her back on the carpet and her voice
came out of
her throat--horrible moans--like a pig wallowing in a mud sty. And
her arms were
steel, jerking that awful, big thing into herself--making it go in
go terribly
deep, taking it into herself so fast, so violently fast. So
brutally."
"It affected me. Her pleasure was like a lure. If she could have
it--why not me,
too? I had all my life stifled my lusts. The burning was in me,
too."
"In a dream, in a dream, I opened my clothes and fingered my teats.
While my
daughter wallowed on the floor in obscene spasms of pleasure, I
plunged my hand
to my core and found myself shamefully wet."
"I was dizzy. The room swirled. I heard a roaring. I was suddenly on
the floor
with her. She lay quiet and I took the thing from her. I pulled it
out of her
and pushed it into myself."
"Oh, God, it was big. It had been weeks and weeks since my husband
had done his
dirty act with my body."
"It was so thick. I couldn't understand how she could take it, so
much of it.
But I worked it and worried it into me, and it finally sank into my
depths, into
the Devil's pit in my belly."
"It burned in there like fire, stretching and awakening my secret
places. I
pulled and pulled and it rubbed somewhere very deep. It pressed my
womb and a
breathless thrill shot through me. My belly was suddenly hot. My
legs got heavy.
My breath was deep and fast. I could not keep from using the thing
faster. The
lightnings of pleasure were such that I had to feel them more and
more, quicker
and quicker, and I was plunging that thing into myself as Barby had
deep, and so
fast--and I was grunting as she had, and was groaning, wallowing in
the
pleasure, wanting more, wanting it to be stronger and sharper and
wanting the
hot bubble in my core to break. It had to break and spill a heavenly
rapture
through me. I knew it would ... oh, it was coming true ... oh, it
was almost
there ... it was rupturing--OH YES ..."
"I was addicted in that awful time. I cared for nothing ... nothing
but the
golden pleasure that was driving me mad with delight."
"When it had faded I saw Barby beside me smiling--smiling with the
mouth of
Satan."
"We abandoned ourselves from then on. We gave up our souls for
fleshly pleasures
of all kinds."
"We made other things of a likeness to the thing she had created.
Other ears of
dried corn were altered ... and we tried bottles ... and we tried
... I will not
tell you the things we attempted."
"The floodgates were open for me. I found myself in bed with Barby
that night,
rubbing her chest with an oil that was cold and hot--menthol of some
kind
prescribed by the doctor."
"But where before I had let her apply it herself, because I was
unwilling to
touch her breasts with my hands, that night I did it willingly, with
her eager
permission. She suggested it, and I agreed."
"We were in my bed, the big bed my husband insisted on--king-sized
because of
his six-foot-three body and need to sprawl out and roll freely--and
it was late.
The wind was up again, howling, spattering snow against the window.
I had the
heater on. I all of a sudden didn't care about saving oil anymore. I
wanted
warmth all the time. I did not deny myself anything."
"It was nicely warm in the room and we lay atop the covers in our
nighties.
Barby lay uncovered to the waist, on her back."
"I had my hands on my daughter's breasts, rubbing the sharp-smelling
oil into
her flesh. I could see that she enjoyed it. Her teats were up, hard
and
puckered. The oil made my hands and fingers slide easily on her
body. The
rubbing became sensual ... extremely sensual and lewd."
"She squirmed under my hands, and sighed and smiled that licentious
smile. I
didn't know her any more ... my sweet, innocent little girl Barby,
who had
devotedly read Scripture for an hour each day and prayed, as much as
I ... now
she was a fallen angel. Transformed."
"And so was I--seduced by pleasure and sloth ... I fondled my
daughter's large
breasts with indecent enjoyment. I squeezed them and slid my oily,
slick palm
over the full globes of them. It was a delight to feel them go warm,
to rub the
stiff teats and make her face glow, and to squeeze the deep flesh,
to push the
rubbery, smooth, white mounds from side to side."
"She asked me to kiss them. She was breathless. I could not do
it--then. She
took the bottle of oil and poured some into her palm and she ...
with her other
hand she pushed the straps of my nightgown down my arms. The bodice
fell and my
own breasts were exposed."
"I let her use her hand on my breasts. I let her smear that oil. The
sensation
was of ice and then warmth, heat, heat that reached deep into the
flesh."
"Side by side we lay, caressing each other's breasts, rubbing
hardened teats
until they glowed."
"I could not resist. The thing we had used earlier in the day was on
the table
beside the bed. My eyes turned to it again and again. Its rubber
skin was shiny
in the light from the lamp over it. 'Me hard kernels of dried corn
showed
clearly--red and yellow and some black."
"Lust grew in my body as we fondled for endless moments. Barby
raised her head
and began to suckle on one of my breasts."
"It was exquisite. I trembled. I had permitted my husband this
liberty only
rarely. I had never responded like this. His lips had never brought
forth the
pleasure I experienced at that moment. Barby fell back onto the
pillow. She
asked me again to kiss her breasts."
"I did ... I suckled on her breasts as she had on mine. I mouthed
her teats
willingly and knew joy when her moans came and she praised me."
"She touched me between the legs as I suckled on her. And I felt her
reach over
me to the table. A shiver went through my body."
"Barby put some oil on the thing as I mouthed her teats. I did not
want to see
what she was doing."
"But then I felt the touch of her fingers entering me, urging me to
open my
thighs. I knew if I did--that she would use that thing on me--she
would push it
into me and ravage me with it."
"I trembled and pressed my face to her flesh and flung open my
knees. I wanted
that thing in me, I wanted it with a sickening, lascivious greed."
"She whispered awful, filthy words in my ear and pressed the end of
that thing
into me. And in ... and in ... until I thought I could not possibly
take any
more. My Devil's hole was full of the Devil's implement. Strange hot
shivers
went through me."
"Barby began thrusting the thing in and out, in and out, and I
closed my eyes
and I imagined the horned goat-man was between my legs, ramming
himself into me
so violently and deeply. A great spasm passed through me. I was weak
with lust,
unable to speak or move beyond the obscene jerking of my hips, and
the lewd
sounds of pleasure that poured from my throat."
"At length a fit ... a seizure, a wild moment of impossible pleasure
left me
hoarse and shaking, empty of feeling."
"I put a palsied hand on Barby's arm and she stopped my impalement
with that
thing. She let go of it. I pulled it--sucking horribly--from my body
and
listened to her dirty pleadings for me to do to her as she had to
me."
"My hand guided it to her gaping core. My hand pressed it slowly up
into her
belly until there was nothing left to enter her. My hand began that
terrible,
wonderful stabbing."
"Barby quaked from it ... cried her lust and her pleasure from it.
She was a
wanton--as wanton and obscene as I had been. That lower mouth gulped
the
implement and rose always to gulp it again, with slobbering greed."
"For long, violent moments I stabbed her with the huge, thick thing,
until her
belly rose and sank and she shook and twisted in the throes of the
pleasure I
had known, too."
"She calmed and I released the thing. I lay staring, waiting, but I
went
unpunished--then. I lay and remembered the Sign--the cloud--and I
didn't know
what to think."
"My child was possessed by Satan. She led me farther into
degradation and
debauchery. I asked why, why, why, and she leered at me and said she
was a witch
and she made the sign of Satan with her fingers."
"She laughed when I shrank from her and she seized me and suckled
ferociously on
my teats again."
"The power of her evil was too strong for me. I had fallen too far.
My faith was
weak--I was a degenerate--lost. My bodily lusts were
unleashed--running free in
me, gobbling in my mind to let go of all restraint, to wallow in
lust, to enjoy
everything in every way."
"Barby's mouth was skilled beyond imagining. Her suckling on me
brought the
passion for more pleasure surging into me like a hot tide."
"Her fingers came to my thighs and manipulated me. I was on fire.
Her mouth left
my teats. She moved curiously over me, and then she settled between
my legs."
"My heart began a furious pounding. My blood curdled and went to
ice. I was
paralyzed. I lifted my head and our eyes met."
"She smiled that Devil's loose, wet, sensuous smile--that leer--and
lowered her
open mouth and kissed me--there!"
"I sobbed for the horrible shame of what was happening with my own
daughter ...
and for my helplessness to stop it. We were flaunting terrible,
unnatural
perversions. We were falling into the Pit!"
"And yet I abandoned myself to the pleasure that came to me from her
mouth ...
my own daughter's evil mouth!"
"She had never done that before, I was sure, and yet she knew how to
perform
those indescribably lascivious acts with her tongue and lips."
"I could not stop her. I did not wish to--I came to begging her to
continue, to
go on and on as the filthy ecstasy grew in me and expanded and burst
that bubble
of rapture that no woman should know, that seductive, dirty pleasure
that drives
all thought of purity away, away, away ... and fills a woman's mind
only with
lust, and the wanting of more pleasure."
"Each time that great pleasure overwhelmed me I thought I could
endure no more,
and each time it passed, a still greater lust for it to return
possessed me!"
"I lay with my thighs open, my arms wide, moaning shamelessly,
writhing in
pleasure, hearing her wet sounds as she captured my soul with her
diabolically
knowing mouth."
"Finally she rose up, her sweet child's face--her woman's face--her
Devil's
face, all wet from my inflamed core."
"Satan's smile was still on her glistening lips. Those perverted
lips told me
she wanted that filthy service, too."
"Her bubbling cough was never present when she indulged in lust. The
dark powers
cured her for the time she did their bidding."
"She moved over me. Her knees enclosed my shoulders. Her core was
over my face,
a wet, pink mouth, ugly and fascinating, ready to press down on me."
"I begged her not to make me do it. I screamed. I flung my head from
side to
side but the solid white walls of her thighs were on either side. My
arms and
legs were senseless, too weak to raise. My belly sickened and put
the taste of
bile in my mouth. My heart truly hammered. Ashes seemed to dry my
tongue."
"That awful, bearded, pouting, unnatural face descended to mine and
pressed its
fevered, dripping, loose lips to mine."
"I gagged and could not breathe. I tasted those fluids of lust. I
wished to
die."
"She raised up and instructed me, firmly, as if I were the child.
She pressed
down upon my mouth again--and--I obeyed ..."
"She told me more. She was patient. She let me learn ... I soon
wanted to learn,
to give her what she had given me--for there would be nothing
further for me if
I did not please her. She would deny me her mouth. She would deny me
that thing
we used."
"I found--a skill. I discovered ways. I was soon looking up the
white, rounded,
billowing slope of her belly as it flexed during her pleasure."
"Barby said vile words of approval as I gave her pleasure that way.
Where did
she learn them? Not from me. From her father? From her father? FROM
HER FATHER?"
(Louisa was unable to continue at this point. I left and returned
when she
called me again--in need of a bottle.)
"We did those things for days ... days and days. All night
sometimes. We did
nothing else. We stopped bothering to dress. We ate with a kind of
impatience.
We became haggard. We didn't bother with combing our hair. Nothing
seemed to
exist but our sexual organs."
"There were so many ways to excite each other at first. The pleasure
was
endless. I could not believe it could go on and on like that,
without
diminishing--but, it seemed the opposite--the more we indulged the
better it
was, as if, for me, a lifetime of self-denial was being made up for
all at
once."
"But it was Satan at work, using my organs to seduce me to his way.
He wanted
me. He paid for me in his coin--beastly pleasure ... animal
gruntings and
perverted ecstasy, in sins uncounted, unmeasured."
"My body became a vessel of lust. My mind became centered on ways to
provoke
lust and pleasure in Barby, so she would perform them on me in
turn."
"Weeks passed. We lost weight. We slept together, we often never
left the bed
except to go to the bathroom and to get something to eat and drink
and to go out
to feed and water the stock."
"We always took care of the animals in the barn, and the chickens.
But it was a
grudging care. We thought only of our pleasures."
"We refined our skills and devices until we could often use two or
more at the
same time. Nothing was beyond us."
"Barby was not content with even the 'normal' perversions. She
wanted to
experience everything."
"She ... she asked me to use one of the things--one of the sheathed
ears of
corn--use it in the other opening of her body. You know. You
know--where you
sit."
"It sickened me--even sunk as low as I was--it turned my stomach.
But I complied
... I penetrated her with it ... and days later I used two of them
at the same
time. It was so utterly foul--to labor over her with two of those
big things,
plunging her full in both places ... and to see the unholy
expression in her
eyes--know the pain and pleasure that flowed and melted together in
her body."
"YES--I know those pleasures and pains! I allowed her to--"
"We tried everything. We searched our wits for varieties, for
different ways
..."
"It was at first a game ... then a hungry need ... finally a
desperate search
..."
"OH YES, I'LL TELL IT NOW!"
"Barby--it was her turn to go out and feed the stock and tend the
chickens. But
she was gone too long. I wanted her."
"I worried. I went to the door in my coat but naked underneath, and
I called
her. But the wind was too strong and cold."
"I threw on my clothes and boots and went out--down the path to the
barn and I
found her in her pony's stall."
"It shocked me--as far gone as I was--it shocked me."
"Barby was kneeling in the straw and she had her hands up on that
animal's
parts. She was playing with his thing ..."
"We should have bought her a mare. But she was twelve years old when
we gave in
and only a stud pony was available ... We never dreamed ... But I
see now it was
God's will. He wanted to test us. We failed. He let us have our way
and we took
the easy way--and it happened ..."
"Barby heard me enter the barn--she looked up at me and that smile
was on her
lips again. She said, 'Look what I found!'
"She told me to kneel and look. I knew--I was raised on a farm. But
to see my
girl's small, white hand on that monstrous thing ... to see her
stroking it ..."
"It was larger than the things we had been using ... longer. It
projected down
and she stroked it, made it longer, and smiled!
"A terrible fear came like a clot to the pit of my stomach. I tried
to get her
to come back to the house. She did, because it was so cold. But she
looked back,
and her voice, low and depraved, wondered what could be done with a
pony ..."
"The next day she went out to the barn out of turn, and stayed an
hour. I was
jealous, yet I would not give her the satisfaction of going out to
get her. And
I was afraid of what I would see. Barby was capable of anything."
"And then--then--then she brought that animal into the house! That
great male
thing! She led it in through the door with a great draft of icy air.
It clomped
around and seemed to fill the living room with its size.
"I wouldn't have it. I ordered her to take him back to the barn, but
she only
smiled and shook her head no. She said she wanted to play with
him--with his
thing. She said it was fun. She said there was something she wanted
to show me
..."
"She took off her clothes. She became naked and she said how nice to
be naked
with him, to be with him and be warm ... She knew she couldn't keep
him for long
inside--the heat would harm him; he was used to the cold. His coat
had grown
long and thick."
"She pressed her breasts and belly against his flank. She rubbed
herself against
him. Her teats expanded and hardened."
"'Do it, mother. Try it,' she said. She ran her hand under his
abdomen.
"I refused. I was naked and I was eager for pleasure, and I had
tried almost
everything she had thought of ... but I could not--then--rub myself
against the
shaggy side of a pony--an animal that weighed at least seven hundred
pounds."
"He snorted and breathed like a bellows. He tossed his head. He
smelled!"
"But Barby didn't mind. She was excited. She sank to her knees and
handled him
under there. She told me to look ... Look ..."
"I was ... I was curious, a little, and disgusted. I went to my
knees on his
other side, opposite her, and watched. I didn't see how she could
touch it. I
saw it emerge a giant's organ."
"Barby touched it--ran her hands along it and was breathing fast,
aroused, as
she did it."
"She told me to watch ... watch what happened ..."
"She began to masturbate that animal! She spat on her hands for
wetness and
rubbed her cupped palms along that monstrous thing. It was
terrifyingly long!"
"The beast neighed and stamped its hooves with delight ... I'm sure
it was
delighted. It tossed its head and its blonde mane flew. It looked
around at me
and I saw that look in its eyes!"
"THAT LOOK--YES! Intelligence and cunning, and lascivious knowledge.
I saw Satan
in that animal's eyes."
"He smiled! That same evil smile. He let me know who was inhabiting
that pony's
body. My blood--yes, my blood went to ice and I moaned so that Barby
asked if I
was sick."
"I said no. I was trembling. I watched her as she continued to rub
that immense
thing."
"He got more and more frisky. He almost stepped on Barby once. I
held his head
down by the bridle. He snorted and I swear he groaned in that huge
barrel of a
chest."
"She was clasping his thing with both hands, she was rubbing it
faster and
faster, panting with the effort, watching the end of it. She said he
was close
to shooting."
"He almost danced away from her. He tried to pull away. He wanted to
raise up
and enter a mare. His instincts--"
"I held his head down. He almost pulled my arm out of its socket. He
neighed
loudly. His hoofs clopped on the rug.
"Then Barby gave a little scream of triumph and rubbed that
monstrous organ
furiously. It was a violent pinkish purple, and swollen and ugly and
it jerked
in her hands--his whole body seemed to jerk and a thick, syrupy jet
of white
stuff came out and spattered on the carpet."
"I recoiled. But I couldn't took away."
"More of it shot out ore and more. The rug under him was getting
soaked with
that awful male stuff. The air began to stink of it--that disgusting
raw smell.
It turns my stomach."
"Barby was laughing! She enjoyed the sight of it spurting out like
that! She
enjoyed making it happen!"
"I told her she could wipe it up, and wipe it UP good! I told her to
take him
back outside, that she had had her fun!
"She did. And she wiped that stinking, repulsive stuff up. Then she
came to bed
with me ... and we ... did things to each other."
"She was very passionate. She demanded my mouth and the use of the
artificial
things we had made--she was insatiable. She kept me doing things to
her for
hours.
"Yes--in her lovemaking to me--it was not love, it was lust
incarnate, mutual
satisfaction of diseased sex urges ... she was ardent. She did to me
everything
I liked, for as long as I could stand it. At my point of
exhaustion--when we
finished--it was nearly dawn."
"We slept for ten hours. I was more tired than Barby--I dozed on
after she left
the bed the next afternoon.
"I woke up with the sound of that animal's hooves thumping on the
floor in the
living room.
"I went naked from the bedroom and found Barby with him, playing
with him. She
had stimulated him so that his thing was all the way out--that great
obscene
length--and she had a pail of water between her thighs, and she was
washing it.
"I asked her what she was doing ... and she said, 'Watch, mother,
just watch!'
"She soaped it and masturbated it--and that beast enjoyed it ... he
rolled his
eyes at me.
"I was suddenly afraid. I couldn't tear my eyes from that huge
organ. Barby was
sliding her soapy hands to and fro on it, watching it like a slave,
obeying the
perverted master that had possessed her.
"She told me to come closer so I could see it shoot. She told me to
touch it ...
do it with her!
"God help me, I put my hand on it. It was like touching a wet snake.
It was warm
and clammy and revolting to touch.
"Barby said, 'Let's do it together.' She pressed my fingers around
it. Yes--
there was room for three hands on it, it was so long.
"It was a skin-crawling time for me ... but I did it. I almost
enjoyed the
perversion of it, the abhorrent, loathsome ..."
"We stroked our hands on it, faster and faster, kneeling half under
him on each
side. The only way we could see each other was by ducking our heads
below his
abdomen."
"His heavy girth was heaving so near my face. I inhaled the
damp-sour smell of
his thick coat. His left hind thigh rippled with muscles. He snorted
and
groaned. His hoof nearly hit my leg. It was dangerous, what we were
doing."
"Barby said, 'I'm going to try something tomorrow.' And I knew ... I
KNEW what
she meant. I said NO, but her voice was full of strange lust ...
something new,
she had to keep trying new ways ..."
"We kept on masturbating that huge thing. My arm was getting tired.
The
thickness in my loose, slippery grip seemed to swell and get harder.
The beast
became extremely prancy. Yet he seemed to know he had to stay
put--he seemed to
know he had to be careful not to step on us. But of course the evil
intelligence
in him guided his conduct. That was proved when--when Barby, the
next day ..."
"Barby kept saying she was going to try it. She was going to figure
out a way to
do it. I couldn't see her face, but her voice had a husky, reckless
tone in it.
"I could not control her. I could not control myself. We were both
in the
malignant grip of our flesh-minds.
"Flesh-minds. The urges of our baser selves. The sin-minds in all of
us which
wait and wait and wait for their chance to take us over. They lurk
in the pit of
our brains and they grow strong and they scheme and plot for a
weakness to
happen, and then they make us do something dirty and it is full of
pleasure, and
they seduce us to more filthy acts and more, until we are in their
control!"
"Yes, these flesh-minds are linked! They communicate with each
other. They are
in constant contact with Satan in his lair in the center of the
Earth. In the
depths ... in the Fire ..."
"That was what happened to Barby. She was weakened by her illness
and idleness
... and the Devil found evil for her idle hands to do. She slipped
and soon she
was over the edge--sinking into total degradation ... and she took
me with her!
She awakened my flesh-mind and fed it and overwhelmed me! She and
Satan! I could
not stand against them!"
"So Satan claimed her. He has her now. Her immortal soul is on the
spit,
bubbling in the flames, in her agony ... yes, the agony of her
death! That's
how--she is spending eternity--with that monstrous thing plunging up
into her,
ripping her, tearing her belly ..."
"NO--I warned her. We held that huge thing in our hands--it was so
big--it was,
yes, yes, at least a foot long ... and that beast was so vicious
when aroused--
so elemental! The wicked mind in him let the primal instincts have
their way
when the animal was in that position ... when Barby and I--"
"YES, I!"
"It was a nightmare. The days after that time that we knelt and
masturbated that
thing together. She had to have me participate. She had to debauch
me. She had
to include me in her depravities."
"I have to tell you what it was like--feeling that thing ... shoot.
It--I
couldn't see it. It was hidden by the animal's flank. I didn't want
to see it.
It was terrible enough to have my hands on it with Barby."
"That huge clammy-hot thing jumped in our hand and Barby gave a
laugh--'There he
goes!' and I felt that monstrous organ leap in my hand again and
again. I felt
the passage of that stuff through it!"
"The awful smell came to me and some of that--some of it spattered
on my knees
and thighs. I felt it splash on me! I was revolted. I scrambled away
and went to
wash--to bathe."
"While I was in the tub Barby came in. She reeked of his stuff. She
came into
the bathroom and smiled evilly down at me and she was covered with
it--smeared
with it! She was wet with it--her hands dripped with it! She had
slopped it onto
her breasts and belly and thighs ..."
"She flaunted her filthiness before me. She said, 'I've thought of a
way,
mother. It'll work for you, too. You'll see. Diablo is going to--I
can't say the
word she said."
"Barby was insane. To do that she had to be insane. That's what
happened, of
course--the evil lusts--the Presence that took her over--it left her
mind
twisted. It wasn't her fault, poor dear, poor, poor Barby ... my
darling
daughter. She wasn't responsible. Neither of us were responsible for
what
happened, not really."
"WE HAD TO BE OUT OF OUR MINDS! We were Christians ... we prayed, we
always kept
our thoughts under firm control. I taught her that--'Control the
thought and you
control the body.' It is the easy way--the first defense."
"It is just that--Something interfered. She said she couldn't
control her
thoughts. I couldn't either. I tried! I fought--"
"In the bathroom--yes, I screamed at her to wash--but she only
smiled and leaned
down and smeared me with it--that awful smelly stuff!"
"And then she--she had to be insane! --she put her finger into her
mouth! Before
my eyes she tasted it and smiled and said it was like honey!"
"She enjoyed shocking me. She enjoyed doing things that she knew
would revolt me
... and then making me do them, too."
"'Honey, mother ... taste it.' It must have turned her stomach, but
she smiled
and put her other, drippy fingers near my mouth."
"The smell was awful. I shook my head. But she Pressed her fingers
to my mouth."
"WHAT POWER MADE ME DO IT? I howled in my mind and I locked my
jaw--but my mouth
opened! My stomach was churning. I knew I'd vomit. I was dizzy
again. There was
a roaring in my head.
"Suddenly her fingers were in my mouth--and I tasted--I tasted the
slimy--"
" I didn't vomit. I didn't ... I don't care! Yes, yes, yes, I
swallowed it! She
had my eyes. I couldn't break her gaze--she had my eyes and my body.
HE had her
and she had me!"
"No--two days. Two days later. I don't know why ... yes, I remember
... she
wanted him to be ready. She wanted him to have a full amount of ..."
"I told her, I pleaded with her but ... She had a pillow. A thick
foam pillow
from the sofa. It was brown-gold corduroy--the cover. It was
shaped--it was like
a square but with scooped sides."
"She showed me what she had done with it. She had cut a hole as big
as her
fist--your fist--in the center of it, and she had sewed up the sides
of the hole
... so it was big enough--the hole was big enough to let that pony's
thing
through to her.
"She put the pillow down between her thighs to show me--the scooped
sides fitted
her thighs on each side, and the hole was centered right over
her--her opening."
"It was about five or six inches thick ... and firm, but it would
still let an
awful lot of that thing through--into her."
"She was determined to try it. She had a weird glitter in her eyes.
She kept
saying, 'First me, then you, mom.'"
"It was my soul they were after. My soul was older and wiser and of
more value
than hers. Getting my soul would be something."
"I see now Barby was a toy to Satan. He snapped her right up and
used her to get
at me."
"Yes, she brought that animal in the day after she showed me what
she had done
to the pillow."
"He was extra anxious. He was nervous. He did his business right on
the rug ...
a big pile of it. It stank to high heaven. I cleaned it up. I had
to. I couldn't
stand it there on my rug."
"She had to use something she could lie on that would support her
about two and
a half feet off the floor. She finally fixed up the sofa--she piled
the cushions
at one end so they were level with the arm."
"She had strings sewn to the special pillow and she wore it between
her thighs,
with the strings keeping it in place, tied around her waist, hips
and thighs.
"She led Diablo around the room and got him so he faced her as she
sat on the
arm of the sofa.
"YES--this is burned into my brain! Everything."
"She sat facing his throat, her head just under his head, her naked
breasts
touching his chest. She held the bridle rein in her right hand."
"I stood watching, hoping it wouldn't work. "She settled down on her
back on the
piled sofa cushions. She pulled on the rein straight back, holding
her arm up."
"The animal, to go forward over her, he had to straddle the end of
the sofa
where she was lying, with his front legs."
"It was too wide for him. He couldn't do it. But she kept urging him
to get over
her; she kept pulling on the rein."
"He tossed his head and tried to pull back, but she kept him under
control and
kept pulling ..."
"Finally he did what he had to do--what Satan made him do--just the
right thing.
He reared up and planted his front legs just past her head, in the
place--where
the middle cushion would have been."
"Barby said, 'See, mother, see?' She patted his chest. She settled
him down. He
curved his neck down to try to see her. He snorted."
"She reached under with her left hand to touch his thing. It was
supernatural
the way he got quiet. And that thing started to slide out--ugly and
purple and
wet."
"It was sliding out--down--right into the hole in the pillow between
her thighs!
It was perfect ... everything was Controlled!"
"Barby laughed when she felt with her hand where his thing was
going. 'Now I'm
going to get it,' she said."
"I told her to stop it--he'd kill her! But she wouldn't listen. That
animal was
standing over her--if he slipped or if he decided to kneel his front
legs on the
sofa all his weight would crush down on her."
"And if he managed to get too much of his huge thing into her--it
would rupture
her."
"She guided with her hand and shifted around some under him. His
organ was out
all the way--I'll never forget how long and thick it was--and he was
stamping on
the floor with his hind legs, he was sensing something new and
better than
masturbation, this time. His ears turned and perked. His barrel
sides heaved."
"Barby suddenly made a surprised 'OH' and drew a sharp breath.
"The beast snorted loudly. I knew he had entered her ... and thick
as he was, I
didn't think the pillow would save her. He would compress it, smash
it flat with
his savage lunges."
"I saw him start--the first powerful thrust of his rump--the flexing
of his
broad thigh muscles."
"I cried Barby's name--she tried to speak but his plunge into her
and the
pressure of his heavy belly on her chest as he moved made her breath
puff out in
a kind of grunt."
"I started forward to get him away."
"She saw me. She had her head turned to avoid the long hair from
under his
chest. She gasped for me to not do anything."
"There was an expression on her face amazed and exalted--and wonder
and pain in
her wide eyes."
"The pillow did work for her--it did act as a kind of limit on his
penetration--
but, oh, God, he was into her so far ... so terribly far, with that
thick thing
... ugly wet and like a purple-skinned hose ..."
"She reached up on each side of his barrel and seemed to hug him, to
hold him.
Her fingers gripped his shaggy winter coat like death."
"And the horrible sounds they made--the awful squelching sound of
him there--in
her--and her grunts and groans as he went in each time. And that
animal's own
bellowing breath--so loud!"
"I stood frozen, watching, my hands to my mouth. Frightful moments
passed ...
and Barby didn't try to escape, or call for help."
"She had her eyes closed tight. Her face wrinkled each time his
massive organ
plunged so deeply into her belly. Her mouth sucked air. She kept her
tight grip
in his coat."
"Her legs were flung wide. The strings holding the holed pillow to
her had
broken but I saw it didn't matter--Diablo wore the pillow on the
base of his
thing like a hilt."
"She cried: 'Mother--mother, it's like ... it's incredible! It's
like being in a
hurricane!'"
"The awful squelching sound of that ... intercourse ... became
wetter and
faster. The beast was doing it more and more--just crushing forward
into her."
"She cried--I can't forget--'I love it, I love it--I'm his slave
now--' And she
kept on grunting and wincing and gasping ... 'Oh, Master--Master!'"
"I knew who her Master was!"
"The sofa was being pushed little by little, each time he bumped the
end with
his legs as he as he went into her. The end of the sofa came up
against the wall
by the kitchen door."
"That beast blew gusts of air from his nostrils. It sprayed the sofa
with
spittle. He rolled his eyes with the madness of his lust."
"It was absolutely terrifying to see him pounding into her body.
Barby was being
butted into, pushed, ravished."
"I couldn't understand how she could stand it. She must have been in
agony from
the size of him. But she was holding onto him now to keep herself in
position
for his continuing thrusts."
"Then--oh--the time for his ... the stuff ... into her--it shot into
her ... it
gushed out of her as that thing went in--pouring it in and squishing
it out ...
She screamed--that pressure--that horrible male-stuff--so match of
it and then
... it was over. The animal lost all interest in her. He put his
legs down
sideways off the sofa and turned around ... pulling out of her and
leaving an
awful dribbling trail ..."
"Barby just lay there, arms wide, legs open ... a sticky, wet mess
of that stuff
between her thighs, running from her core ... she was gaping open
like a red
tunnel, all drippy with that stinking, disgusting stuff."
Barby looked up at me ... and her eyes were dreamy. 'I was nothing
at all. I was
just a tube of flesh and he used me. I wasn't a person. I was just
meat. I was
just meat.'"
"Those words cut into my mind--just meat. The male beast--that
animal--was like
every man wants to be--just a huge organ with no responsibilities or
cares, who
wants a woman to be just meat he can forget the moment his pleasure
is over."
"I went to Diablo and pulled the pillow off of his shrinking,
receding thing. It
was about to drop to the carpet, anyway."
"The pillow was stained with his stuff, and with sweat. It stank.
The whole
house stank of completed lust."
"I started to throw the pillow into the fire-place for burning
later, but Barby
said, 'No, don't! We can use it again. We can wash it.' And so I
threw the wet
thing next to the soiled clothes hamper in the hall."
"I put on my clothes and took Diablo back out to the barn. When I
got back I
heard Barby in the tub, washing up."
"She called me into the bathroom. 'You've got to do it, too, mom. It
scares you
to death at first, but then, but then you're one thousand percent
woman. It's
incredible.'"
"I said no, but she kept after me. She kept arguing and arguing ...
She was
arguing for Satan. I knew it, but I was ... I was had to find out."
"If Barby could take him, with that doughnut-like pillow on his
thing, limiting
him, why couldn't I? I was a mature woman and she was only a girl, a
sixteen-
year-old girl ..."
"So, yes, yes, YES ... I allowed myself to be convinced. I allowed
her to
convince me. I had to know what it was like--this ultimate
degradation. I
imagined that this adventure with Diablo, this would have to be the
end of our
moral disease. Somehow, I imagined that when the snow melted, our
debauchery
would melt and we would see the firm ground of decency again ..."
"I was afraid, as Barby said she had been. My insides were watery
and I had to
go to the bathroom a lot, on the morning of the second day, the day
we agreed I
would try it."
"She went out, whistling, singing, and brought the brute into the
house. He
almost pranced up the stairs and across the porch. He neighed a
greeting to me,
as if he knew ..."
"I was naked. I was dry-mouthed and nervous. I held the pillow
clenched in my
hands."
"Barby asked me if I wanted more ... preparation. A few minutes
before she had
been doing delightful things to me with her mouth. I had been wet
and
passionate--but with that beast so near, with the time so near--my
lust was
gone."
"She managed it all. She led me to the sofa with its cushions
arranged as
before. She forced me to lie down and spread myself."
"My heart was shaking me. My stomach turned queasy as she led Diablo
close to
me. She held the rains taut. She urged him to rear up and cover me."
"He looked down at my naked body. He looked into my eyes. I saw his
lust. I saw
the Devil in his eyes. I turned cold. But I was petrified; I could
not move or
speak."
"That was the first terrifying part. He did rear up. Suddenly the
great shaggy
bulk of him was in the air over me--his legs and hooves were coming
down at my
head--his chest was coming down to crush me--"
"But his legs went beyond my head and his chest stopped inches from
my breasts.
His long underhair, off-white and dirty, brushed against my skin as
he
breathed--and as I breathed."
"I was gasping with fear. I could not see under him. I could not see
my thighs
and his ... his huge thing."
"Barby said, 'I've got the pillow on him, mom. Boy, is he ready for
you! I
barely touched him and it slid all the way out.'"
"I felt the end of his organ prodding at me hitting my thighs, and
belly and
close--close to my core."
"Barby said, 'Hang onto his coat. The first few seconds are rough.'"
"I felt her hand between my thighs, opening me with her fingers. The
beast over
me was blowing and snorting with eagerness. I felt the huge, blunt
end of his
thing--Oh, dear God, I was terrified. What made me lie there and let
it happen?"
"That huge thing just--before I could prepare myself--it just
plunged into me! I
was suddenly stretched horribly ... it was so thick! It was so
terribly far into
me--like a pole had been shoved into me--I screamed! I hurt so much!
It was so
massive! Dear God, I'll never forget it!"
"My whole belly was an ache--full of that gigantic organ. I did hold
onto his
sides. I gasped--the breath was pushed out of me--he was shoving and
shoving!
His great round hairy chest and barrel was pushing down on me and
moving over
me.
"I was in hysterical was panic-stricken. I was--yes, a tube of raw
meat for his
use!"
"I wanted it to stop happening and I didn't. I was like a beast
being used by a
super-being."
"Then I felt the touch of the pillow that circled his organ and
limited his
thrusts. It was being crushed against my thighs and ... and my
crotch."
"The first few seconds--the shock of that brutal, sudden, total
penetration--
passed ... it passed, and I knew I could endure it."
"The sheer animal power of him, over me and in me--dear God, so much
in me--the
violence and lust and beastly selfishness ... it made me feel ... I
can't
explain it."
"I was being jolted and battered by that thing that plunged up into
my belly
again and again and again. Each thrust was a giant invasion of my
body, a kind
of rape that I was permitting to continue. I found myself holding
onto his
shaggy, smelly coat to keep from being butted forward, away from his
thrusts. I
wanted his thrusts ... I wanted that huge thing of his to keep on
filling me and
filling me and hurting me."
"Each time he went in--oh each time, the size of it--it pushed
brutally against
that place inside me and a lightning bolt of pain and--and pleasure
mixed ...
all mixed up together--went through me!"
"Each time--it took my breath away."
" I saw Barby ... blurred ... smiling ... watching ... and I turned
my head
away, under Diablo's heaving, moving chest, to face the other way. I
knew my
face was nakedly showing my reactions."
"I began to wish it would not stop ... I began to feel a hot bubble
of lust in
my belly. I began to writhe against Diablo's girth, to rub my
swollen teats
against his tickling, maddening coat. I was panting, mindless,
glorying in the
huge thing that was thrusting up into me."
"I should have felt shame and agony, and guilt, but lust and growing
pleasure
overwhelmed my conscience ..."
"I forgot everything. Diablo became my god. I sank down into the
Pit."
"A voice was moaning loudly and it was mine. A body was twisting and
squirming
with lust, and it was mine."
"The force of nature that was ... that was possessing me--that is
what he was--
Diablo--not a pony, but a Force ... a god. I imagined he--it would
go on
forever, endlessly thrusting, endlessly driving me to a pleasure
that I could
not imagine."
"But he thrust faster and harder. I was shaken, tossed about under
him. I had to
grip his coat like death and fight--I hooked my right leg down over
the sofa
arm--I had to fight to stay in place."
"I heard Barby--'He's going to shoot in a second ...'"
"I wanted him to do it in me--to get completion. I would be
dishonored if he
didn't. I would not be a worthy female if I left him without his
final pleasure
..."
"I wasn't a human woman ... I was down in the depths of ... my mind
was so full
of those ecstatic lightnings! My Christianity and my morals--they
were like sand
and the huge thing pounding into me, faster and faster--yes, and
deeper--
deeper--was the ocean ... the endless ocean ... the forever, ageless
ocean ..."
"Mindlessly, I knew the pillow that prevented an awful, terrible
penetration of
me was being compressed and minimized with each powerful thrust.
Diablo's organ
was like a merciless log ramming into me. My belly was a vast golden
ache ...
OH, GOD--further and further up into me ... thicker and thicker ...
His snorting
and bellowing breath was frightening, terrible ..."
"THEN--a great liquid blow burst into me. A giant thrust into the
stuff--pain--
and another gush of it--a horrible plunge into me, spurting ... I
was full of it
... overflowing, an awful warm wetness covered my thighs and ran
down under my
bottom, soaked the cushion ..."
"Diablo made his last gushing plunges and was finished."
"I was dazed. I lay inert ... in a stinking welter of his thick,
white, runny
discharge."
"Barby got him down off of me safely. She put on her coat and boots
and took him
out to the barn. The draft of icy air from the door as they went out
seemed to
drive the daze from me.
"I groaned--with shame. I struggled to sit up and saw the mess that
covered my
lower body. Sharp little pains shot through my abdomen as I moved. I
wanted to
vomit, but couldn't."
"I was in the tub, washing thoroughly, when Barby came back into the
house."
"She came into the bathroom, naked once again. She said I had taken
more than
she had because the pillow was flatter. She said she'd have to alter
another
pillow for Diablo to wear. She laughed and looked at me and asked if
I enjoyed
it."
"I didn't tell her. The Devil in me was whispering for it to happen
again. My
stomach got fluttery as I thought about it."
"I knew it would happen again. I would assist Barby and then she
would assist me
... and Diablo would be better and better trained ..."
"A dull horror spread through me, but it wasn't strong enough to
change
anything."
"It happened ... it happened ... what? YES, damn you! HE KILLED
HER!"
"We did it with him--with the beast--with the Devil--we did it about
... I don't
know. Twenty times. Each. YES. Each."
"Yes--I got so I loved every filthy, degraded moment of it. I got
so--we both
did--we got so we spent hours out there in the cold, brushing him,
cleaning him,
braiding his mane, making over him disgustingly ..."
"We brought him into the house more and more, We put papers all over
on the
floor for when he ..."
"He was our big man. He was the king. We were his harem. It got so
we did
nothing with each other--we only lived for the moments that he was
... was over
us and that huge thing was driving us crazy."
"The morning it--I was out in the barn. The snow was beginning to
melt. Barby
had him in the house. I was gathering eggs. Somebody had to do it.
We had to
keep the stock going, and the chickens ... no matter how debauched
we were, we
still had to care for them."
"She couldn't wait! She thought she could manage it alone ... OH,
GOD ... I
heard--I was in the henhouse--I heard a faint scream ... just a
faint one. I
wasn't even sure it was a scream the hens were making so much
noise--and then I
heard it again--the scream. It went through my heart like a knife."
"I KNEW IT WAS BARBY. Something had happened! I ran--I RAN--and when
I got
through the door--OH, GOD--she was under him and he was jamming and
the pillow
wasn't there on his thing! It was on the floor! HE WAS RAMMING IT
ALL--ALL ALL
ALL INTO HER! SHE WAS--BLOOD ... BLOOD WAS POURING OUT OF
HER--EVERYTHING WAS
COVERED WITH BLOOD"
"HER FACE WAS TO ME ... and, yes she was ... she couldn't got away.
He was
kneeling! He had her head locked between his front knees! His belly
was holding
her down flat, down into the cushions! And she--my baby couldn't get
away! And
that monstrous thing was going all the way into her! It was covered
with her
blood! Blood was spraying all over ... his belly was soaked with it
... And SHE
WAS SCREAMING! Her face was so horrible--her eyes--"
"I grabbed him--his reins and I pulled sideways and I screamed at
him and I
PULLED! But he wouldn't move--HE WOULDN'T STOP! NOTHING WOULD MAKE
HIM STOP!"
"I got the gun--my husband's rifle--on the rack and we always--it
was always
loaded. And I knew how to--I SHOT HIM! I SHOT HIM! THEN HE SCREAMED
AND HIS
BLOOD--I SHOT HIM AGAIN! HE GOT OFF HER. He--he--like a drunken
man--all around,
breaking things ... screaming ... I was yelling--screaming ... I
shot him again.
He wouldn't die! He fell down and started kicking. His eyes were
like rolling
marbles. He was breathing blood ... I kept shooting him! HE WOULDN'T
DIE! Then I
hit his head--in the brain--and he--he went dead ... he jerked and
he went all
limp."
"Barby? Barby I went to her--yes, I tried to ... but the blood--she
was all torn
open. She--the blood was so red! It just ran out of her! I couldn't
make it
stop! She was so wide open--between the legs--here--like a--a big
hole--like a
butcher had cut open a ... like a tunnel ..."
"She was so white--her face I called, on the phone, I called the
hospital in
[the nearest town] and they sent--they sent an ambulance."
"But she was dead when they got to our place. I don't remember them
coming in. I
remember it all up to calling them. It's all there, but I can't--"
"... the psychiatrist--said I was repressing it. I didn't want to
remember--the
pony and my daughter together like that. He said the report said I
had been
babbling ... babbling and was sitting on the floor by the pony,
reading the
Bible to him."
"No, but I don't remember. But I should have loaded the gun and
killed myself.
This way--I'm just taking longer."
"They all knew what happened. They knew right away. She was naked,
on those
cushions that way ... and with that hole in her ... That sewer hole
running
blood ..."
"I was in a hospital and the police--the sheriff came ... and some
other men ...
Then the doctors. Then I was taken to the insane asylum."
"They kept me there for a year. Then it kept getting more crowded
and the state
was short of money, and they let me go."
"That's all. I'm all empty now, from telling you. I don't care
anymore who
knows. I don't care. I wish I knew how Satan got to Barby, though.
She was such
a lovely, pure girl."
Conclusion
The varieties of human sexuality are incredible. It comes down to
this: if it
can be attempted, it will be.
Dr. J. Rosenberger, in his recent book, Bestiality, states that all
authorities
do agree on one point: "... that the entire gamut of sexual
relations between
human beings have been applied between humans and animals," and "any
act that
can be committed between man and woman has been committed between
human beings
and animals!"
The basic need for sexual release in women as well as men is
indisputable. They
get horny too, and are admitting it ... and acting on that fact.
As the Women's Lib activity in recent months shows, women are
throwing off the
culturally imposed attitudes which have limited and channeled their
sexuality.
They are becoming more openly sexual. Their new attitudes are making
them the
equivalent of men in sexual matters, and the existence of The Pill
and greater
accessibility of abortion is taking away the long range consequences
of sexual
activity--Pregnancy.
Thus women are becoming more and more free to be fully sexual,
psychologically
as well as physically. The cultural and social result is the
phenomenon of
"swinging" and extreme sexual experimentation--by women.
Women, it seems, are as curious about sex and as or more willing to
try new
things as men once they have broken down their inhibitions.
In his The Animal Lovers, Dr. Rosenfeld says, "... there is a good
deal of
hardcore evidence that city-styled bestiality is much more depraved,
involving
more of a variety of acts, and with the sexual contacts more
frequent."
Of the sophisticated people whose stories I know or have read about,
only a very
few involve sex between men and animals.
Why, for instance, do not men take advantage of large female dogs to
the extent
that women are willing to try male dogs? I am speaking here of city
men. There
has been and is a significant amount of male-animal sexual activity
in rural-
farm areas.
It has to do with cultural "images" and male pride. In many ways men
are more
conservative and "narrow" than women.
It has been said that men in need will stick their penises into any
kind of hole
in the hope of sexual pleasure, especially if no one is around to
see them try
it. And it is increasingly obvious now, that women will allow any
kind of penis
into their vaginas for the same reasons, if privacy is assured. (Or
relative
privacy, as in the case of exhibitionistic swingers and their pets.)
There are the obvious exceptions, of course, animal-woman sex for
profit, as
with the prostitute, and the patently insane behavior of such
persons as Louisa
and Barby, where repressed sexuality and paranoid schizophrenia
combined in an
explosion of psychotic behavior.
Unthinkable thoughts are being entertained in our time, and
increasingly,
unthinkable acts are being performed. In every area of life.
We can look for more and more cultural taboos to be knocked over and
social
changes to result.
What will our society be like twenty years from now? It would
probably surprise
the hell out of all of us if we could make an instantaneous
turn-around and see.
As it is, we will live through the changes and hardly be aware of
them.
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